I’ve been through a lot of pain this past few years. Anxiety, depression, mental health issue...they keep on following me in my alone time in the middle of the night. I just cry and cry and cry until I fell asleep. I feel like I can’t count on to somebody. I feel like I am not worth any fight. My friends told me to stop, and find myself again. I know they can easily told me that since they didn’t know exactly how it feels to be lost in love. Some might say that I am just overreacting. Being dramatic over one guy. But, hey! I’ve known that guy since I was 8! And I always believe that he is my soulmate. My other half. But we can’t have everything in this world. Then one day, I’m just browsing my socmed accounts. And then I saw her again in my feed. I’m a fan since The Fame. But I’m not that much updated anymore since I’m always busy before saving my career, get back on the track, finding myself, provide the needs of my family [mom&dad]. Being the brave one to keep the family intact since it is almost falling apart. I know to myself that I feel so down that night, I’m crying even there is no tears running down my face. That kind of hurt. Then I saw her. I remember my listed movies in Netflix and one of them is Gaga: Five Foot Two. I watched that since I want to know how she prepare for her Halftime show for #SuperBowl51 I keep on watching and then suddenly in one of the interview I felt like she is talking to me. The part when she said that “all this people will leave and I will be alone”, that hits me hard. That made me realized that no matter how famous she is, she feels alone too. Then after that documentary I played one of my fave song of hers; Million Reasons. that song always gives me courage to stand up, and pick myself up from all the failures, disappointments, pain and sadness and STILL, everytime I hear her songs, her advices during interviews, her speeches, I feel like she is really talking to me and telling me that “HEY GIRL! Everything will be okay in time. Be brave! Always believe in yourself, I’m here for you!” she made me feel that through her music, movie, interviews, speech and her love for art. She is truly my hero who saved me from my own chaos. And now, I feel better. While listening to her and watching her I can no longer think that I’m sad. Because even if we are touchscreens away she always made me smile and She reminds me how I should love myself and know my worth. I always keep in mind that if Lady Gaga can dance with her broken hip then I can do everything. I believe those pain made her really,, really strong. Thank you, Mommy! ♡♡♡ HAPPIEST BIRTHDAY TO YOU MY QUEEN! “Stefani Joanne Angelina Germanotta” @ladygaga You’re an inspiration to everyone. Us Little Monsters are very lucky to have you. I love you and I will always be here for you. #pawsupforever. I wish to see you in person one day, maybe when you go back to PH. ♡♡♡ #ladygaga #littlemonsters #mothermonster #lg6 #astarisborn #allyXladygaga #birthdayqueen #pawsup #millionreasons #iloveladygaga #thefame #thefamemonster #bornthisway #artpop #cheektocheek #joanne #positivevibes #myheroine #myqueen #HappyBirthdayStefaniGermanotta ©️to photo owner. 🥰