@LadyGaga Weird mythological stuff and self-aggrandizing aside, it is hard to keep hope sometimes. I lose hope and give up easily and frequently, but I notice I tend to find it again quickly, so to speak. That's kinda what I mean when I say I'm relentless: It's not that I have endless resilience and energy, but that even though I have hard times, when I feel better again I take advantage of it. Right now it's hard to think outside my own head because I'm sick again. I really do like you and the Little Monsters even if I don't show it. You might have noticed at first I was always trying to put a bit of separation between me and the Little Monsters, like I didn't count, or like they didn't count I guess, but these guys have definitely grown on me and I count myself as a Little Monster nowadays. It's a fascinating community. I think I keep hope because I don't want to imagine a world without it. With the way I am, and the way I used to be especially, a lot of people might say I was broken and irredeemable. and the worst part is they say it about other people. I never liked to think that we're all stuck, or that I was going to be a bad person forever, so I changed myself, and I live to show the world through example that we can all do better and can all be more loving and forgiving. Because if I can't do it and prove it, there's no hope for anyone else either, and I don't want...Read more...

@monsterart Pandora certainly didn't. Hope is supposed to be the most dangerous of all the world's dangers. But we have it in our box, not the boxes of the terror, pain, and sadness that escaped to rampage, so we have the most powerful weapon in the universe at our disposal against it all. I hang around here to talk to @LadyGaga about Pete's opera, but I also like the thought provoking quotes, and especially helping (or trying to help) other Little Monsters when they need it. Even though I'm not focusing on the opera anymore, this place is still fulfilling for me. I alternate between feeling hope and feeling terrified, largely because of my illness, but it's only more motivation to spread hope. I'd like others to return the favor when I need it, you know?