Just reaching out for support, since my life is just me and my three cats. Im currently sitting on my hands right now , until the urge to self harm has passed. It's getting on two hours now. I know where the blade is. But im still not given into them thoughts. Im trying to redirect thought process like my psychologist tells me to do. I hate nights like these.
Depression with love is the most treatable illnesses and allows us to see life more realistic than others , be more compassionate & better people . Living richer when we start feeling better .
No idea. But its always worth trying. Sense she makes my life worth living...im not looking for pity or to cry a river to her. But i do want her to know she helps with my coping skills which involves 🎶 her music.
@marci4017 and not forget self harm. I dont self harm much anymore, if i do im having a bad time coping and redirecting my thought process,which is what my psychologist wants me to work on more
Yesterday july 3rd I went to six flags Chicago. I have a season pass. It was a present to myself for the past 4 years . I survived severe severe severe childhood sexual abuse by my uncle ( my dads sister's husband) he abused all us kids mainly my dads kids me and my two older brothers when we was kids. , then same uncle made my brothers do shit to me , no brothers should do their little sister, uh em. That went on for years until i was 13 and started when i was six. I ended up with severe ptsd and the depression , night terrors and the anxiety that goes with it. I been in psych wards because of wanting to end it all. Its Hard to live with it and the memories, which are horrifying. Anyway, my dad was on drugs and alcohol, my mom worked ( someone had too) my mom and i left the home in 1997 , after my high school graduation. I have no contact with nobody on my dads side of my family today and im almost 40. My ptsd symptoms started showing up in my junior year in high school. Today im on four different psy drugs to keep me above water most days. Anyway i wanted to share all this with you because your music and positive vibes keeps me going on each day. I been in with a psychologist for 5 years now. He's really good at his job. So I only been getting help with all this for only 5 years.
@marci4017 Your Welcome! You have a good support system here most importantly. I'd been to the best doctors and been on every psych med - knowing someone hears you is half the battle