I wrote this yesterday on my Facebook and thought I share my story with you #littlemonsters! I am not one who opens up about what really goes on in my head. Many people think I am this person who is always happy, quirky and proactive. Now I feel it's time I open up this chest inside and unlock what I'm really feeling, and what I'm really thinking when alone. There are nights I cry in my sleep. There are days when I want to hit something. Words spinning around me; "I'm not good enough", "No one really likes me", "I'm a freak", "Why me?". The spiral goes on but yes... WHY ME???!!! Throughout my time I have experienced a lot of difficult moments; bullying in particular- it all added up! This has led to ANXIETY. I cry, I can't breathe, I feel sick, I shake, I stutter, I break out spots and I feel weak. Sometimes I do blame myself for things I have done wrong however, simultaneously trying to better myself, but actually trying too hard which turns out to be either right or wrong. I have these anxious twinklings now and again, kinda like having a fit. You just don't know when it's going to happen. I'm not writing this for sympathy, but as awareness for not only myself but for others. It's not easy to see right away... I do take medication to control the physical side of anxiety, but mentally my medication is my creativity and to the people who have helped to pick me back up. I thank them for encouraging me to put one foot in front of the other, and remind me to smile cause it's ok. 🙌🏼❤️#WorldMentalHealthDay @gaga #WorldMentalHealthDay #BornThisWay #goodtotalk #Itsokay