#BornThisWayWeekDay5 5th grade to 9th grade were probably the hardest school years of my life. I was a total loser. I barely had any friends - mostly because many were afraid to get seen with "the weirdo". I got bullied a lot for my looks, the clothes I wore and so on. (I do admit my outfits were a hot mess back in the day, but hey, I just didn't care about having the most expensive stuff and wearing the latest trends) Especially the boys went hard on me. They called me bad names, spread rumours, made others dislike me and sometimes they even beat me. When I finally got to a different school (it's kind of a business college, you can compare it to High School) the bullying stopped, but not my insecurities. I still felt like a big loser. In 11th grade I got so depressed that simply wanted to kill myself. I wanted to free myself from the bad feelings, the anxiety, the hurt. But thank goodness I didn't do it!! I found another way to free myself - expressing myself through art, fashion and dancing. When I dance i feel fierce and confident. When I make art I can put all my pain and heart blood into it. And fashion helps me deal with the pain in another way - when I look good I also FEEL good. Lately I found out that writing music actually makes things a lot better. I wanna thank @gaga for inspiring me so much. Her music really made me brave! I'm still insecure, in so many ways, but I can truly say that all the pain that I had to go through made me stronger. I wanna be brave for all my friends and for all the people out there who had - or have - to go through the things that I had to go through. You are not alone!! #IAmNotJust the loser from middle school. I am a winner and I will fight till the day I die! Thanks for reading my story, I'd love to hear yours! [[lm.pawsup]]