**first of all guys not because i dont reflect my sadness it means im not sad, this is personal and i wont share any sympton of sadness anywhere except in my own space, my posts **thanks you all guys for being so cute and comprehensive, many things have happened last week , i meet a new person, i advanced in my healing track and i left myself to lie as a new way to cover me from the truth , i had days off and i could be able to support and listen you guys , same as you have done with me but unfortunately my week was not so nice as i thought it was gonna be, we,my family is pretty special, we yell at us and well you know why i entered this place, i was in a need for a new and better family, is a sad day for me because my both parents want the divorce, is not new for me, they have always yelled one to each other and even they have had theyre breaking points and fights, but now is real, i hope not, i'm scared sweeties i do love my both parents but to be honest none of them are a good option for my development , if only i weremore like my brother i guess i could survive to all of this, he is the only one who makes me love my family, i have not so good relationship with any of my parents and if the day come i will loose one of them and in the worst case both, cause none want to see them again, and i know is not my fault but i have done many not ok things and sad things i had pay the bill and im still trying to pay it, and if you guys want to know how bad have i felt i just can say that i had regrets of being gay and even my existence. guys im scared idk why bad things are happening now and so fast, only yesterday morning we were a family now they want to quit from it ,and i know this time is serious cause they both have their lawyers and yesterday i did not sleep at home , i can stop crying i dont want to have 2 families.