Hey guys I just wanted to firstly thank you for the amazing support you have given me for my last post I am speechless and so overwhelmed by you're love and it really means so much because it came from the bottom of my heart I love you xxxx Now I wanted to make this post because I just feel down and I have received some unpleasant comments on Twitter and such about my letters to Gaga because I "go on and on about them " but I just wanted to say that the reason I do this the reason I want to meet Gaga so badly is not just so I can be popular or get attention or whatever you may think it is it is in truth because I want to just thank her I want to give her a hug and thank her for saving my life maybe even give her my book I made because she saved my life with this video in 2011 (www.youtu.be/...) she without knowing it talked me out of taking my own life I know it may seem silly because it's a video and she wasn't talking to me personally or whatever but for me I just she said what I needed to hear I just wanted to know I was accepted you know by people other than family I just wanted to feel accepted and loved for who I really was and she gave me that it just to know someone out there cared and it was thanks to her I started a Twitter and littlemonster account where I then began posting about my feelings and then I discovered I want the only one feeling that way and that I was not alone I had never felt so much love and friendship and positivity so then it was that support which really pushed me to recovery I still struggle from time to time but just knowing who I am I mean I have found my true passion of music and art and monsters and I don't mean to annoy people or seem stupid or seem attention seeking or anything like that I just imagine that you were gonna commit Suiside but then someone stops you you'd be during to want. To thank them and really tell them how they changed you're life it's the same thing with me I just find it so hard because you know she's touring the world I'm going to school she's online I'm asleep it's impossible to be able to tell her but I just want her to know this because I think it's the least I could do and without her and without you all I would be dead right now and to look back on how I felt then and how I feel now it's like I really am a whole new person this is why I just wanted to write this and maybe even get help with getting my dream someday never forget I love you with all my heart my Twitter is (@ARTPOPLight)instagram(@slaaaaaydy_gaga) if you would like to help me please use the hashtag #GagaSavedRuthsLife and tweet this to Gaga I'm not trying to strut around or anything I just want to give her a gift a hug and one huge thank you paws up xx [[lm.heart]] [[lm.pawsup]] [[lm.heart]] #GagaSavedRuthsLife #ThankYouGaga #PleaseHelp #ThankYou #ILoveYou #Monsters Gaga-@gaga @bornthiswayfoundation @studioxo @hausofgaga @bobby @tarasavelo @lane @thewizard @brandonmaxwell @terryrichardson @asilove @faspiras @richysquirrel @lacee @dollychops @marlaw @nannypoppinsengland @breedlovenyc NickFame: @nickjudas LauraKorf: @laurakorf Cam Glitch: @camglitch Carolina Freitas: @carolinafre Michael: @maikeeb Jordan: @jjpgaga Diego Monster: @diie11 Filippe Schlengman: @filipe.schlengmanronchi Alien Rose: @alienrose Angela Camille: @wesonsmith17 Giolee2014: @giolee2014 BabyMonster2210: @babymonster2210 Rachid Michel : @monterram Andreia Pires: @andypires89gagaa Psychological Risk: @milana.pisar Babygiirl: @babaygiirl Joey Salmeron : @joe.salmeron Cristina Gonzalez : @cyonzalez1 Giorgy Catalina Walteros Franco : @kata.3001 Keval gada : @kevlittlemonster Ana Maria Germanotta Buus: @anamaria.buus Monster of Love : @ladygaga159 QueenGagaMonster: @queengagamonster Francis Sanchez Gomez : @francisswag Eick Quiroz : @littlemonstererickq Mr G : @germanottajoe Haus of Gaga: @hausofgaga Tara Savelo: @tarasavelo Helen Green: @dollychops Emma Welsh: @nannypoppinsengland Mama G . @mamag Blayme: @insanehooker Richard Jackson : @richysquirrel Terry Richardson . @terryrichardson Bobby Campbell : @bobby Lane: @lane Marla Weinhoff: @marlaw Diana KoT: @monstrcat Artisteal: @maggheera ZeroMoNster91: @emador Roberta: @roby141091 Mohsem: @mohsemmed Manicure: @lorenzoperi Leigh Mayson: @helxig Lucia Fedorovà Hruskova: @perfect Roggie Adrian Laingo: @roggiiieee Andrew: @italianlm88 Ognjen: @ognjenzz Shanar Sellers: @geekboi22 MandyGaga: @mandygaga24 Botticellipunk: @samjohnperry ARTPOP Alien: @gagathebrave Roberta: @sorolyicouldie Milan: @milanm013 Callum Marely : @CallumMarley101 Katrina: @katrina603 Musicisanart: @musicisanart Ilse: @ilsebullee Bene Litllemonsters : @yuyi99 Andrus: @andrius.surdokas GagaSET: @gagaset Kkaterinaa: @kkaterinaa Sean: @shx Godofdope: @godofdope Anibal Jose Nieves Martines: @aniballordmonster Kessye Gaga: @ilovegagaqueen German: @german Monstermonsterxd: @monstermonsterxd Child of Love : @littlemonster619 Clément Marissal: @clementlovegaga Legendary Kiing: @fabian.sotelo.1610 God of Sex: @eshiatam0304 Sofia Monster: @sofia98 Pauly Monster: @paulymonster Black Judas: @wced20 Maxime: @alarymaxime Kittaii_Monsterx3: @leamarie.reusch JohaaDiaz: @johaadiaz Mehdi: @officialmehdi Martin Ramil: @martinaramil Domenic Adrian Ortiz Fuel: @domeniclm Venirada: @venirad Mayos: @mayos MrRhame: @ch3xmixx Jose Antonio: @monsterinbed Darragh Mc Nally: @darraghmonster Princess Vagrant: @theminddance Nilufer Nelli Monster: @nelli96 JamieFame: @jamielazarus Laiima: @lauma.lorence FiniallyARTPOP: @finallyartpop IzziCalderone: @ejathassan Kristina Hakala monster: @littlemonsterhakala Toria Acrobat: @coolnebraskagrl Angi Al-Andaluz: @minikisses Alessandro Bagans: @bobix94 Jonathan: @jon2127 DylanCTV13: @dylancunningham Berkay: @mrgaga.Im Roger Bachinger: @rogi Nosa Lipton: @lipton @artpopyas-@artpopyas @annamaria.buus. @coolnebraskagrl @maggheera @ilovegagaqueen @gagathebrave @radioartpop @monsterkindness @monsteradvice @kizzy4464 @valari4 @timxoc @samsammytanner @queenlittlemonster