In London on October 23rd I threw a letter on stage. I'd written about how I've struggled with my mental health for a very long time and I admitted to taking 6 pills/night. It's something I used to be so ashamed of because of stigma from all directions. It was an honest letter, with many honest words. **I shared a very honest thing about me: that in 2008 I attempted suicide. I was 15 years of age. And I was put on anti-depressants. ** After years of going back and forth to hospitals and psychologists, I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder at 17. And to be honest, there's no way I would have survived all them years without Lady Gaga. **I was brought on stage that night on October 23rd 2014, and I had spent every day since the first day I found her music in 2009 thinking that someone like me wasn't worthy of meeting someone like her. **She's a queen, and what am I? A freak of nature. All I'd ever done was hurting myself and people that I love. I didn't know who I was, and sometimes I still don't, because when you're around the age of 15 you start finding out who you are as a person, but I was put on all these meds that I sometimes don't know who I am without them today. But I have to make myself believe that that's OK. I've always been keen on sharing my story, but this opened another door.** I got to share my story with a sold out O2 arena and I got to inspire people, the way I'd been inspired by Gaga. **Growing up, there weren't too many people who were honest about living with a mental illness, and sometimes I wonder if I would have attempted suicide if there would have been one person whom I could relate to. That's when it became important to me to be a voice for everyone with an illness that can't be seen. Because I know what it's like to be ashamed and feel guilty for being sick. I've loved Gaga for many years. It's a love so strong that sometimes she warms my heart even when it feels ice cold. Hearing her say that she takes medication as well, for depression and mental illness, shook my world. **Here I sat with someone whom I'd admired all this time, whom I saw superior to me, and for one tiny moment, we were just the same. **And that's priceless to me. It's a blessing that will stay with me forever. Perhaps Gaga won't ever remember me, but that's not the point. The point is that girls and boys, my monster family, came up to me during/after the show, they hugged me and they said "I'm just like you". And I began crying and couldn't stop. I wasn't on stage just to meet Gaga. I wanted to make a difference, and hopefully I did just that to at least one person. That would be enough for me. **What I'm trying to say is, if you feel bad, sad, anxious depressed, or even manic... don't be embarrassed or scared of seeking help. **Please be a part of a world changing movement that will end stigma against mental health. It's going to take time, but every step of the way is important. In 2008 I attempted suicide but failed. In 2015 I'll be graduating art/makeup/fashion school and I'll be a certified make up artist. I get to play with all these colors that I lacked in life as a young girl, and I get to share beauty with others. Nothing is impossible. It's a long fucking way, and it's still fucking bumpy, but knowing I have Gaga on my side makes life a little easier. Just wanted to share that. Much love, little monsters, and #bebrave x