Got to have an x ray on my chest tomorrow. The Drs wanna make sure the inflammation isn't on my chest. I spoke to my dr and he said I have an abnormally high amount of inflammation in my body which means they need to investigate much further and give me a diagnosis. Unfortunately I won't know much more than the end of July where I see the spine specialist and the musculoskeletal disorder specialist. I'm just sad that this condition won't go away, it'll probably get worse. I won't find work because I can't lift, bend, stretch, sit, stand etc. So where does it leave me? Fucking hopeless. But I suppose the good thing is that it's made me realise that I'm not going to take anybody's shit anymore. I'm not going to sit back and shut up about my feelings. Fuck anybody who thinks it's ok to make me feel bad.