I adore you very much my expensive life!!!!!
thank you how you are for me!!!!
I live for you and thank you that happy one do you are the queen hardly I wait for it how I shall be allowed to see you honey! I am on the world the your largest fan forever and ever!!!! I am happy very nicely thank you:) Gaga you soooo beautiful perfect amazing cool good i love you baby!!!!!!!!<3
Gaga I really hope you come close to Sacramento one day because I really need to meet the person who saved my life. You are the reason I smile everyday. Please come to Sacramento or at least near Sacramento if you do a Cheek To cheek your. I love you so much! 😘
I have been having such a hard time lately... it feels like everything I do is a mistake. I reach out to my friends and they end up attacking me. Sometimes I think "It's ok, because I will always have the support of all the Monsters of the world." But I really don't. Not here, not from family... even my husband is finally getting sick of watching me cry all the time. I feel like, if I ever did get to meet you, Gaga, that you would probably hate me. You would think I am a horrible person just like everyone else does. Sometimes I just wish I could be "normal"... I wish I blended into the wallpaper... but when I have tried to be fake and match the drapes I always eventually end up tearing them down. Sorry, I always end up talking in metaphors that no one understands, just another one of my flaws. Everyone always says I was born out of time... like Nikola Tesla or Oscar Wilde... those guys died alone. If it is true that my child will be something amazing that makes me very proud... it just doesn't stop the pain now. The loneliness, the isolation...segregation, emotional abuse, misunderstandings and judgements all still hurt. I wish it didn't... I wish I was stronger... but there's another thing that is wrong with me to add to the list. It feels stupid to write things like this sometimes but it feels like there should be a record of my feelings somewhere. Just in...