I waited 3 days outside @gaga's hotel. Today I decided not to come cause I thought she would have left already or use the backdoor. But she just posted that she's gonna leave Amsterdam and she's gonna meet fans outside the hotel. I'm so so sad that I'm not there. And I can't make it in time to be there, cause it would take 3hrs and @gaga would already leave the hotel by the time then. Tears can't stop running down my face. This makes me so sad. I just want to see gaga soo bad. Only a wave was enough for me.. Why am I never lucky enough? #amsterdam #artrave #sad #gaga #holland #maryjaneholland #mjh #artpop #rave #cry #tears