Hey Guys. I'm here today because i need to accept myself a little more and i'm needing some support. I know that place is always full of love and acceptance. this website its always a refuge for me when I feel uncomfortable and lonely. Sometimes I just want to live in another dimension. When I was just a lil baby, my dad just told my mom that he wouldn't stay w/ us and he wanted to forget us forever. My mom always took care of me, and she was my best friend. We used to do everything together. But in 2011, my mom decided to leave this world. She leave me alone here, and I feel that every fucking day, I feel worse. Nowadays, I live w/ my grandparents. Yes, they are cool, and I love them so much, but they can't understand me, they can't accept me by the way I am, so then I need to pretend to be someone i'm not. I used to dance to free my mind, always inspired by Gaga. She always inspired me in everything that I do, and dance is what I love. But now, my weight is injuring me. I'm with 3 kinds of problem in my knees, and now I just don't know what to do. God took my mom's life, then he took my all. Now looks like he wants to take everything that makes me feel better & next to my mom and gaga. I just don't wanna stay here more. I know there are a lot of people w/ bigger troubles, but I just can't stand it anymore. I don't wanna live here to be bullied at school, always get injured, and those things. People call me "the fattest lesbian" or another names that I don't like it. Why I need to be so wrong? I can't I just be a normal girl? Maybe i'm going to suicide. That's my last "goodbye" And here, a selfie, 'cause this is the only pic of myself that I like it, 'cause nobody can't see how fat I am.