I have been going to see a doctor who would not treat me for 6 months even though he saw my feet were swollen. Today I found out that was from my false hip that was put in. I could not walk to my computerto make a post on here for some time. Also, I had an infection that I needed medicine for and I just got the medicine 4 months later. That doctor left the clinic that I was at a few days ago. Yestederday I felt really bad and took 12 pills. I called the suicide hotline and went the er for 5 hours. All can say is that I hope no other monsters do this no matter how far people push you. It is not worth it. I hope I start feeling well enough physically to post more and share that there is hope and everyone is loved by someone as often as I can.