I find LM.com a place I can share anything & find support, comfort & advise so I think it's time I shared why I haven't been active for a little bit. I suffer with depression & anxiety & lately it had been so bad I couldn't work or leave the house I have support off so many but felt so alone & on the 6th of August I attempted suicide for the second time, never in my life did I think I would attempt again but something happened in me, something dark, sad & most of all something I couldn't run from & I thought the only way to get rid of it was to just end everything I didn't think about anyone around me or even myself only this thing that was killing me on the inside that I wanted to destroy. My mum found me unconscious in my room, she woke me up & I was in severe pain she got me to the emergency room & I was treated & kept overnight, the next day I went to my doctor & I was sent to another hospital so I could get some help, once I had spoken to councillors my mum came to visit & brought me the thing that got me thru, she brought me my gaga tickets & gave them to me & told me I have to be better for gaga, I attended counselling yet again & kept my gaga tickets with me always I was out in 2 days & everyone was so proud & helpful & yet again gaga had saved me, it was heartbreaking to see my mum & people I care about so hurt. On the 30th I attended #artRAVESydney & it was in one word #PERFECT I was right next to the piano & gaga looked at me with my little monster hand puppet & I swear she waved at me I cried, laughed, sang & most of all I was finally truly #HAPPY I am still so emotional about the whole concert it saved my life & I am so blessed. I am not weaker from anything that has happened, I am stronger & eternally grateful. If you ever need anything contact me on here or Facebook: abbey Radnidge Instagram & twitter: abbeymay1996 I don't want anyone to feel alone @gaga @hausofgaga #ladygaga #goddessoflove #mothermonster #artrave #artRAVESydney #artpop #bornthisway #pawsup #aussiemonsters #gypsylife #help #littlemonsterpost #aussiemonsterangels #fanart #callme