I was so excited for #ArtraveTokyo because I thought I could see Gaga up close but they did not have the runways. I was a bit disappointed, however, and after waiting for so many hours when Gaga finally came out, I could see no one but her and she was so pretty and amazing. I felt so close to her, yet so far. I know her so well, but she will never be able to know me or hear me. The show ended so quickly once she started singing- felt like 10 minutes, because I had waited for 10 hours before the show! And 6 months since the announcement and all that was finally over and I could not see her close or even throw my letter and now, I am back home, feeling super depressed, missing her so much. I feel like if I remain depressed, out of the blue she will notice me and magically say 'hello'. I have been watching #ARTRAVE videos for the past 24 hours, it's crazy! But I can't stop. It feels like I have nothing to look forward to in life because the possibility of me being able to attend another concert or to meet her seems so dim. I love her to bits, it hurts :( I live far from home in Japan and I don't miss my family or friends as much as I am missing Gaga right now that I am fighting back tears. And it is so hard because I have no one to talk to, no one to be my boat to take me to shore. #artRAVETokyo Has anyone else experiences this? Does it get better? Please help #littlemonsters !