My 18th year has not been easy or happy. All year I've suffered with crippling back pain that just won't heal. It's really affected the way I live my life. Things that make me happy I can longer do with ease such as painting, drawing, writing etc. Even sleeping has become a painful challenge. However, I've been blessed with the friendship of this amazing fanbase and with the love that gaga has given us. This year I've had to sacrifice being able to see gaga live in concert for the first time in 7 years of supporting her because of my bad health. But I have hope. Thank you to everyone who have helped me through the pain, the sorrow and the anger. Without you I don't think i could have held on. And thank you to gaga for being my muse, my inspiration and my best friend when nobody else would be. I hope gaga can read this and know how much she means to me. <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3