I'm not the kind of guy who likes the party life even though someone invites me to a party where I don't know the people around me. I know it's not an excuse but I don't feel good being here. It's just that I expected to be part of the group but that's impossible because we don't have the same musical taste or a topic to talk about. Honestly I just want to go out of here and go to another place. I just wanted to meet someone who I can talk with, but this is not the right place nor the right time. I just want to find a guy like me, with almost the same interests, someone who wants to be with me. I will never find him, I will never find that friend. It's almost impossible. Sometimes I just think about going for a coffee but alone, waiting for someone who wants to sit next to me (or in front of me) to start a conversation. That will never occur. I'm so stupid for thinking that.