

#LittleMonster @ddonatella
im done
im done
im so done i constantly get called ugly and you will see in the picture i post that i am horrific. i get called fat and worthless and i have had eating disorders and I'm still battling with them.. i mean ik I'm worthless but i don't need to be reminded of it. everyone makes fun of me because of who my idol is.. they say why do i love someone who would hate me and not love me. my dad hates me and idk why, i don't have a good relationship with my mom anymore. so i turn here because gaga is my mom, she is there for me when i cry, she is there for me when I have the rope in my hand. i just want someone to love me and i feel like i can't even have that. i try my best to make everyone happy but i just can't, I'm an unlikable person and idk what i did to deserve this. i don't think I'm that bad, I've been to 4 artrave shows now and the people i met all liked me.. but when i left it was back to being worth nothing. i get told that ill never meet gaga but ik i will, i mean i live in manhattan thats where mother monster is from one day ill be lucky enough to tell her this in person i hope, everyday my reams are crushed that ill never be an actress or a singer or a dancer but i know in my heart i belong there i don't care if I'm famous or not i just want to be able to do what i love and what makes me feel the strongest I've ever felt... i go to her parents restaurant all the time and even being in a room that she has been in makes me the happiest person ever. I'm sorry for my rant..you don't have to read it or comment its ok. oh and P.S I've noticed people think i am ashamed of @gaga being my idol but I'm not at all I'm just sick of getting bullied for loving someone who has saved me and someone who ik loves me <3 [[lm.pawsup]] [[lm.heart]] [[lm.applause]] [[lm.cry]] [[lm.cry]] [[lm.cry]]