I have been reading a lot of fellow monsters stories and after a fair few I realised that it was about time to share my own with you all. I hope you will all be as wonderful to me as you are with everyone else.. Here goes... 5 years and 9 months ago my life changed drastically. I was 16 and at college studying Law, I met this wonderful man whom I fell in love with from the moment I lay my eyes on him. His name was Keith. He was gorgeous, caring, honest, passionate and loving. The love of my life. Things moved quickly and within a few weeks I moved in with him. Things were perfect in our little home. He treated me like a princess. 3 months into our relationship I found out I was pregnant and I was scared to tell Keith at first as I didn't know how he would react. But he was overjoyed and couldn't wait to tell people about him becoming a soon to be father. 3 months later 4 days before our first scan Keith was driving home from work on his motorbike (he was studying to start his own mechanic business) and as he drove home a car crashed into him throwing him over a 5ft drop and onto the rocks of a beach. I received the news by 2 police officers coming to our home and telling me he was in a road accident and in critical condition in hospital. I felt my heart shatter inside I didn't know what to do. My knees gave way and I slumped to the floor. Me and his family got to the hospital as quickly as we could and it became clear to me that I was an unwanted guest in this waiting game. Sadly Keith's injuries caused far to much damage and eventually they had to turn off the machines that had kept him alive for 20 hours. On 15th July 2009 I was lost my world, everything had been ripped from under my feet. I didn't know what to do. Away from my own family alone with a family that didn't want me. The remaining 6 months of my pregnancy were awful. I ended up homeless with no help. Moving around hoping to get settled. Eventually I was placed in temporary accommodation and in January 2010 I gave birth to the most gorgeous baby girl. Her name is Veronica, we had to move again into a permanent home. Miles away from anyone with no support around me or help I struggled badly. I had no motherly instinct, I was depressed, grieving, living day to day not eating or sleeping. I soon realised I couldn't do it. My beautiful mother you see in the image attached stayed in touch even though she couldn't directly help she tried her best. When Veronica was 6 months old my mum took over guardianship of Veronica after a long tearful discussion I decided my mum could give her a better life. I went off the rails and there were several attempts to take my own life because I couldn't bear to be without my love I didn't see how things could get better for me. It took a while but that is where Gaga comes in. I found her music and something inside me changed. It helped me find the me that was before. I lost 5 years of my life that I will never get back but I don't look back I only look at now. Mother monster brought me back to life in a way, making me feel something other than sadness. Born This Way always got me. And with Gaga returned my passion for music. I am now a proud studio owner helping local musicians improve and grow with rehearsal and recording facilities. My mum is my Hero and if it wasn't for her I wouldn't have known about Gaga and I probably wouldn't be here today. My mother and I have the strongest of relationships even though we don't see each other. She has given up her life to raise my daughter and give her what I couldn't at the time. 5 Years on we are starting to build up a relationship it is really hard. I don't know how I can thank my mum for everything she has done and continues to do for me. If one thing I hope to have her meet lady Gaga one day as my mum deserves everything special and more. Even as I write this tears are rolling down my face. I wish I could show her how much I appreciate everything she has done for me and Veronica. I know everyone has their story and experiences in life and I wanted to share mine today. If you read this thank you. And if My Goddess Lady Gaga ever reads this a message to my mum would mean the world to me and she would probably pee her pants if it ever happened. You brought us back together in Glasgow on Sunday night and it was the best night of my life so far. Sharing the experience with my mum was my small thank you to her. #artraveglasgow #scotlandmonsters #mothermonster #lifechanging #mystory #ilovemymum The other photo is my beautiful little Princess Veronica Antonia Smith. Although I don't see her often I love her unconditionally and I hope when she grows up she understands. I am rambling now but thank you for taking the time to read my post. Mwah #littlemonster