I have been crying for the last half hour because I don't feel like no one wants me to be a true friend or want me to be me. I feel like i am being used. With my family, I am nice to my younger siblings. I always give them things and help them. But I just began to notice they don't act like a good sibling. The three of them never share with me and they just pick at my stuff without even asking. They assume i am straight because I have not come out to them. They say stop acting or talking like a girl because your acting as if your a gay guy. This really hurts because this is saying to me that it's bad to be myself. In school it's also hard. My friends always say your shorts are to short, why do you put then like that??? I like to fold my shorts because I like how they look that way. I always invite my friends to do things but they never invite me to things. I see my group going to places without me or see pictures of them going to each others birthday parties. They makes me sad because I wonder if I really have friends. I also i guess hurt myself in a way because I don't want to be a burden to others. I offer food to people but I don't take their food. I see it as depriving them of their own food. I would rather be last to get food because I would rather let myself suffer in pain then anyone else. My family is big so I would first offer to sleep on the floor even though my hips are wide and it hurts to sleep on my side. Please monsters I need advice. You guys are the only ones who I ever told anything about me. I know to trust you guys because here no one is ever treated like a peace of meat.