I woke up an hour ago, at 4am, feeling so completely empty. I woke up in tears, not from my dream, but from complete sadness. Ive been feeling so depressed lately, when this should be the happiest time of my life. I'm graduating high school in 9 days, my prom is in 11, and I'm turning 18 in 14 days. Yet I keep focussing on all the negative in my life right now, but how can I not when I'm literally drowning and suffocating in it. I wish I wasn't so emotional, easily bothered, and hurt by many things. I've been laying awake for an hour, and as the hour passed by, I've only read terrible things about me/accusations, and felt so worthless and meaningless. I've been crying nonstop and my body is in so much pain. I drank a cup of tea yesterday at 10pm, that's it. That's all I had, and I'm laying in my bed with my stomach feeling like it's in a knot and tears rolling down from my eyes; I wish it would stop. I wish i didn't hate myself so much and that I could be strong to overcome my daily battles. I'm not looking for replies, I'm just looking for a place to vent and let out some things. Maybe I'll just get a diary and write it in there instead. Idk. Back to sleep.