About 5 weeks ago I had my hardest surgery. The first 3 weeks after it was really hard to me because I could not eat, drink or speak. I was really down and I cried one time when I was alone. Poker Face was the first song I played on my phone and it gave me so much strength. I still have problems with speaking because it's almost impossible to shut the mouth. But I don't give up :) I really love and miss you and I can't wait to see you again! <3 Thank you to all Little Monsters who wished me luck! You helped me too <3