I grew up with a lot of self esteem problems, i might seem confident but i have certain fear still when many people look at me, i am stronger and this is just to open up, but inside i break down a lot and i dont feel the best, i was bullied when i was very young and ive said that already, i still have nightmares with those boys that called me many bad things, i know i was so young and kids tend to be mean but i was growing up and i cant still face myself completely and accept all i am, i always had a problem with my nose not being symetrical, i do want to correct it but mostly for my emotional stability, i can be proud of who i am but traumas dont die, it might be ridiculous to many, but i have anxiety in certain circunstances, since i saw my best friend again and he introduced me to Gaga and her messages in the beginnig, i slowly started accepting myself , i stopped doing straightening treatments to my hair, i started wearing my own style of clothes and less sexier ones which made me 'fit' more, i feel ok without makeup sometimes, its all maybe 'vain' to who doesnt know me, but my country is small and growing up there wasnt easy , i had always amazing parents and some good friends but society scares me specially there, so i moved, i am trying my best to accept my flaws because no one is perfect and i know and love more nowadays not to be the typical 'beauty', i guess its all up to what we have inside, if the head is not ok nothing much helps, i am fighting still inside and i won't give up for all people that helped me , including you @gaga , when i met you the first time and you told me so many times i was so pretty, i cried a lot that evening at home, seems like all my ghosts vanished, you are my biggest inspiration, you and my Mom and i will hold on to what you both always said as strong as i can, beauty comes from inside and that i know i have !!! Paws up