:/ I was looking through my stuff and found this, then I realized I never shared it with anyone... I did it last year, it took me many days to make cuz it's my very first color drawing and I still didn't know how to use them properly (still figuring that out), this was my first experiment. The problem is that I am incredibly insecure and I judge myself quite hard tbh, the second I finished it, even though I was happy to accomplish something that I worked very hard to make, I started judging it and I saw my flaws on it, so I couldn't make myself share it, I was ashamed I dunno, I guess it has to do with my lack of self-esteem, it happens to me very often and it hurts because I love Arts so much (I stan very hard). So I let it pass and buried my drawing somewhere under a pile of books. Months later, now, I found it and I thought "isn't this supposed to make me happy?, isn't this supposed to be fun?, why I'm always sad when I'm creating something then? Why is that I can't finish what I started?" If I work on something for days and then I suddenly hate it, and is not that I hate creating but I hate the results, MY own results. And I give up on it. I give up on myself. I don't want to be that person anymore, I don't like to criticize myself that hard all the time, is good to know your mistakes, in order to fix them, not to pretend like everything you do is perfection, but not to the critical point of stopping you from moving forward and evolving, is like going backwards instead. It doesn't take me anywhere. Definitely not anywhere I want to be. So I decided to step forward and do something, starting with finishing my unfinished business. I started drawing again, I started working out again, I'm moving, and that's why I'm sharing this with you too. I'm aware is not perfect, but I'm doing my best in trying hard not to feel shame of my flaws. I'm learning. This woman inspires me that's why I enjoy drawing her, I never tried making Art myself even thou I'm a huge fan of all kinds of art, I thought I would never be that good. Like if I didn't deserve it. But since I knew @gaga, I started doing it for the sake of having fun and for love. My love for her & Art. I'm not a professional but I'm very passionate. Maybe one day I can be like Helen Green @dollychops <3 who also inspires me very much, or like all the other fan artists who I'm sure took them a very long time to be the way they are now, to find themselves and be comfortable with whatever they create. You all inspire me. One of my biggest dreams is to be just as inspiring one day. And another one, to meet this amazing woman. <3 Hopefully it will happen one day, and I will cry with joy when that happens. #Drawing #fanart #Gaga #LGBTrights #Inspiration #Creativity #selfesteem#Prismacolors #ARTPOP #confidenceboost #art #feelings #LGBT #Colors #skills#talent #love #LGBTSupport #dream #thoughts #Hope #positive #movingforward