I just wanted to thank everyone for such lovely comments regarding my cousins passing. It's a real shitty situation for us to be in, especially with exams coming up as well as just him not being here anymore. I went to see his body today and he looked so peaceful, it was like he was just sleeping. He was a major golf fan so we are holding his service at his favourite golf course this Thursday and we are going to fill the clubhouse with old pictures of him as a baby to just last Monday before he took his life. It's going to be like a timeline of his life, I can't wait to see it. I'm overwhelmed by the amount of likes my last post got and he would be so thrilled to see if he was still with us :( By the way, I just wanted to clear something up that may confuse people, the reason we are cousins of different skin colours is because our mums are sisters and both white and my dad was from Africa haha. We also have a cousin who is half Thai and another who is half Polish lol. Here's a picture of us as kids with blaire in the middle, me to his left and his little sister anemay to his right. This is one of my favourite pictures of the three of us together