I hate selfies, this one is took yesterday after loong day but it was worth it, because this one is not for my mom than for all little monsters. I never get so many love and support in whole life, and you gave me in one day. After visiting my mom yesterday i was really sad because again she couldn't hear me, and she is getting worse, but i won't give up on her, so i write her on paper everything i wanted word by word, because i wante to tell her so many things. When i came home i was thinking about tommorow what to do and what is my next step, but when i opened this site i was really suprised. So many support, you bring me to tears. I hope that all this support could help my mom, she is childhood fairy, and i really don't wanna lose her. I didn't know how to thank you enough. People who are around me never showed me so much understanding. People who are with me whole my life, they turn back on me because i choose this life to take care of my parents instead of living life like every young person. I don't blame anyone because my life is like this, it is hell really 15 years. I was 10 when i was litterally lefted alone i was taking care of me and my little brother, because my dad had a lung cancer and my mom was with him. A was a little girl, a confused little girl who didn't know what cancer is but i was knowing one thing: that is killing my daddy, my hero. And then all this started....they both get sick. I was hoping that this year is maybe new beginning for me...but they both get really sick, my friend died in car crash day after my birthday...and now my mom is fighting for her life. A lot of people would give up when someone told you there is no much hope. I go in a hospital and it happens that she sleep i could walk away but instead i sit next to her and i'm talking to her, i imagine myself that she is awake. I would not give up on my mom, on woman who gave me life, the one who teach me everything i know, she was the first who whipped my first tears, when i was sick SHE is the one who is taking care of me...so now is my turn. But if this continues, that she don't wake up i would be the first who gonna sign the paper to shut down that maschine and everything, not because i wanna rid of her, it's because i love her more than my life and i know that inside this body is person who is suffering and i don't want that kind of life for her. She deserve so much better, and we gonna meet each other one day in better place again and we gonna be happy. A lot of little monsters ask me yesterday how do you survive all this? There is no formula for survive, or pill to take away all the pain i feel. It happens eveything so fast, that you have to think fast. Maybe i have strenght so much because i grown up too soon. So there is no formula how to survive, you just live and do what you think what is the best. Thank you @andypires89gagaa and @laurakorf for being my voice. There is no word to describe how you make my day yesterday.I didn't get used to that, so many love and support so i was little lost in all that.Life is hard, and life is one and you have to live it how much as you know and how is given, you just have to accepted. i did, and i'm still fighting.I really wanna thank ALL little monsters who supported me and there is a lot of people i'm gonna tag some because it's to many, if i left someone please don't get mad and taking this personaly, i'm just little lost in all this. THANK YOU MY MONSTER FAMILY! <3 @monsteradvice @dreamingofgagaa @littlemonsterdestroy75 @gagalover1 @mk171103 @dreamingofgagaa @joanladygaga @eddy.fillon @laeti.j @godalberth @rockylev @tantesui @belen1986 @johnmonster1998 @jelenagypsy @mh1998 @koonsgaga @littlem80454600 @alexandraaaa @frednglt @isabelbakergermanotta @alejandrogerm16 @federico97 @chruchprayer @carlo.patricio.castro @gagafanmonsterx @toaster33 @monsterrm @murci @juandavid.costarica @kikivg @kevinvanlaere @tryme @nikimonster @susanaw @lauzie1 @vanylovesart @tilen @gmancev @roland.winchester @elmothompson @chruchprayer @marrobv @isabelbakergermanotta @sheena15 @monsterrm @orangesands4 @freedmyself AND I AM REALLY SORRY IF I LEFT SOMEONE, but it is too many but thank you all for all your love. It really means so much to me [[lm.heart]] [[lm.heart]]