Lately i've been feeling depressed. ive been crying so much everyday. i always feel very ill and my physical health is really bad at the moment. but i feel like my life is constantly pushing me backwards rather than into the light. i always put myself down and let the bullies win. i start to believe im fat and ugly and will never be good enough for anyone. i dont wanna pretend im fine. i wanna feel loved. i wish i was beautiful like gaga and have her confidence :( #GagaPics #Ladygaga #MotherMonster