Hi Gaga. I am writing with the knowledge that hopes of you reading this are slim, but I am determined to do all that I can. I have had an incredible relationship for the past 2.5 years. We got engaged on Christmas Eve in Lapland. When he said yes I truly believed that my first relationship would never end. I cannot explain the pride and joy this gave me. The past few months a lack of communication, time together, control, loyalty and honesty put us in a bad place. We went all out on a 4 day meet up, but tragically it escalated into a fight in which incredibly hurtful things were said and done. Things that are regretted enormously. We spoke over the incident and came to the conclusion that we were not in the right place ourselves for the love we wanted to give. We also need time for wounds to heal and space to grow into something with more freedom to become who we want. For his Birthday I had desperately tried to get Artpop zone tickets. Unfortunately I was not quick enough but managed to get two seated tickets. I told him that I wanted him to enjoy his present so offered my ticket for him to take who he wanted. His response was "I told you in your Valentine's Present I want to be your date to Artrave - that still stands". When I got the train home I rung him to tell him I was on my train. I said "I want to run off this train" to which he replied "I want you to... but if that happened we couldn't go where I want us to go in our life together". We are at the O2 Saturday date in London. Until that day I will message you and post on littlemonsters with a different reason I love him completely and why I know I was lucky enough to find the one first time round. I want to prove to you, to him, to the monsters and to myself that I have the dedication and strength of heart to last until October. If I am so lucky to be heard, in my mind I need to know that I deserve the second chance if he feels able to give it to me. I know I haven't been very active on littlemonsters in the past. I have been lucky to have had an incredible partner and group of friends who have supported me in every step I take. But right now I need help. I need to do something that shows him how strongly I believe that I can enrich his life, make him feel safe and allow him to reach his full potential and that he can do the same for me. What I ask, and I recognise the size of the ask, is for you to sing "Do you want to build a snowman" from the film Frozen, dedicated to him (Arun Hill). It's the first song that made me cry - it signifies an incredibly special point in our relationship where I let down the wall of not wanting to be seen upset and vulnerable. It took so long to reach but was worth it. It also sums up exactly where we are. We know clearly what we want. But something is currently stopping us from being able to just go for it. We hold out hope, and it kills us every day that we cannot be together. Love is an incredibly difficult thing to have without anywhere to direct it - the amount only makes it harder. It is in your name, Goddess of Love, but not necessarily in your duty to help me. I hope and pray every day that you will see my cry for help and believe me when I say that I cannot think of any way I would rather live than by loving him til the day I die. Thank you for your time, Will PS: I would like this to remain a secret. He is not on LM.com but is on Facebook. What I love 1: The feeling I get when I see him smiling from deep inside because of what we have. What I love 2: How his touch has only ever been the one to have given me goosebumps What I love 3: How time flies when we're doing nothing but lying in each other's arms What I love 4: How he knows exactly where I like to be kissed What I love 5: The pain of being away from him at uni is worth every second I spend with him in person What I love 6: Learning something new about him all the time What I love 7: The adrenaline I get when I know he is home soon, and my heart starts beating reallll loud! What I love 8: Waking up and him being the first thing I see, feel, hear and smell all at the same time :) #love #gaylove #help