It's safe to say that I've been at my peak this past week/weekend. Ive had the opportunity of a lifetime to see Gaga 4/5 times so far at Roseland, and I've gotten the chance to see many friends and people I love. I can honestly say that I have never been happier, and I have 1 woman to thank for that. I'm not very public about what I go through, and a lot of the time I try not to focus on myself and stay focused on everyone else. I've been battling a disease for 8 years now. It's one that has literally changed my life for the worst. I feel trapped in my body every single day, I hated myself and my body(and still do), I didn't want to eat, I didn't like the feeling of having food in my body... I think you get where I'm going with this. These past few months were the absolute worst for me. I reached a point where I hated myself so much that my health didn't matter anymore and I didn't care that I was practically killing myself slowly as each day passed by. But with each passing day, I kept reminding myself of one person who helped me more than they'll ever know. A little angel came into my life 2 years ago, but truly left her mark on my heart 8 months ago. Every day I was sick, I thought of her. Every day when I felt my lowest, I knew that she was rooting for me and wanted me to get better. Every day I didnt eat or ran to a bathroom, I'd cry and think of her and knew she didn't want me to do this to myself. I could not, no matter how hard I tried, get her out of the back of my mind. I could not, no matter how bad my memory is, forget the things she said to me. This angel of mine has been the reason I fight every single day. It's safe to say that I probably wouldn't be here or I would be severely sick in the hospital if it wasn't for her. Never in my life has someone I care about and love so much ever cared about & loved me back, ever. I can go on talking about how much she has helped me but I hope she truly knows that my life would be continuing down that downward spiral if it weren't for her. Granted, I still have my bad days, but 2 months ago I couldn't sit here and tell you I ate 8 pieces of sushi without running to a bathroom right after. Today, I can tell you I ate 8 pieces of sushi last night and kept it all down. I haven't been able to do that in such a long time, and eating sushi was a HUGE step for me. I weighed myself at least 4x+ daily, and today I've brought that down to 2x. I used to go to the gym every single day for 2 hours, I haven't gone in nearly 2 weeks. I'm fighting this, I'm going to win. But guess what? I wouldn't be sitting here telling you this if not for this 1 woman; she truly is my angel. She's always in the back of my mind and has never left when I was at my lowest... I hope she never does. I've been doing so much better and for once in my life I can say that I'm so proud of myself. I still have some bumps down the road, but I pick myself back up and remember someone is rooting for me to make it to that finish line. I'm trying, despite how hard and long this journey has been. I'm trying not only for myself, but for her too. I know she wants me healthier, stronger, and happier... and that's what I'm trying to do. And to my angel, thank you for everything you've done for me. You're the reason for the smile on my face every single day. I love you💚