happy birthday @gaga please if you see this I beg you monsters to help me I know you've probebly herd this 10000 times but please I beg you it is my dream to be able to give gaga my letter please monsters I will do whatever you want follow,like your post,whatever if you just do one thing and on twitter tweet @ladygaga and say "@ARTPOPLight has a letter for you and it's her dream for you to read" please spread the word however you can and also here,Instagram wherever I'm not asking for likes just a chance to tell gaga she stopped me ending my life and so did all of you and how please monsters I wouldn't be type ing this right now if I didn't mean it from my heart 💯 (below is my notes/story for gaga and you guys) I love you and the hause making fantasy reality it's so beautiful I wish one day you noticed me 😔 To- Lady Gaga and her beautiful fans/Little Monsters whatever you want it to be and you interpretative it how you want free your mind in art and pop combined but at the same time is saying we can all free ourselves if we work together we can create a free world and belong together in a society which allows for that to happen we can create such beauty if we try-ARTPOP Hey guys I just really wanted to make this post because I recently have just been feeling really shitty and it makes me angry almost to have to write a sad post because I wanna be strong for you guys and be there for you all it's almost silly when I can't even stay strong myself sometimes but it just really upsets me you know I'm creatively lonely and on top of all that I worry because you know this is my only ever chance this is the first and proberbly only time that @gaga will be touring and I wanna wear either the meat dress or one of gaga's ARTPOP outfits and I wanna dance at the concert but can't this and being creatively lonely you know it means so much that I wear the meat dress or one of the ARTPOP outfits it's my only chance and I just if wanna to my core wear that and being creatively lonely Is a personal thing and I suffer that every day and every night please anyone who can help with my outfit and dancing I'm literally begging for your help and my dream I cannot there is no words anywhere that can describe how I'd feel if I wasn't creatively lonely but I am and this is how I feel in that respect February 17th 03:04pm Ruth Laing (15years old) Sometimes I get so lonely I know I have all your beautiful fans but I just feel so lonely I just want like a group of people who love creating Art and Music and just genuinely wanna hang out and make music and art it gets so lonely with no one else around making and doing what you love on your own is the hardest thing ever I just really wanna be able to share this all with people physically in the moment if that makes sense Which I guess is one of many reasons my dream is to work for and with gaga to be able to do what I love and share passion creativity and music with people who are as dedicated and passionate as me I just really wanna share the moment with people from kicking back and talking about how great music is to spending hours,months,days,years even on creating something beautiful the words on Earth G.O.A.T and Venus cannot explain how I feel this all I am creatively lonely and I always have been and probably always will be and if ideas toff the support I get online from monsters and supporters I probebly wouldn't be able to even have my creativity Wichita hold most dearest to me for that I am eternally grateful so please do not think I don't acknowledge and am greatful for every time somone supports me or talks to me it's just the thing I love about creating is that no matter what it is. weather it be fashion or music or whatever it's when you put people with the same passions in the one room to creat something together it's the energy they creat and feel together it's being able to celebrate the freedom of your passion in an artistic creative way and it's when everyone in the room feel that same tingle or that same skipped heart beat that is what I creat for and that is why I wanna be part of gaga's team so I can experience that and live for the way people feel in the words of gaga live for the applause I hope you all can forgive me for makeing a somewhat more negative post but it's how I feel 😔 (FYI)this is not for likes or sympathy or whatever you think it's for its a call out in hope of @gaga and monsters xo An Open Letter To Gaga And Little Monsters (here is some letters and posts I have writen over the years I hope you like them my heart beats for you monsters and Goddess Of Love) To gaga and little monsters I know no one will probably bother reading this letter but I just really needed to let my feelings out its been so long since I last have an open letter out to gaga or little monsters and the resin for that is not because ignoring you it's because I for once in my life I felt happy and on an even path and I can honestly say this is the freest iv ever felt in my life and it's all thanks to you there's so much I wanna say but I wanna start by saying now I know it might not be everyone's cup of tea for me to come out with an open letter like this but then not everyone likes tea some like coffee and that's ok to but please don't put negative comments on this or any other post because what sounds like a simple "you suck meh life goes on"can cause people to end their lives now I don't wanna be a downer and I promise this isn't all going to be about this topic and I don't say this as a way of sorta attacking people or whatever I'm just trying to prove a point that people take comments differently and you really do have to be aware of that!. As I mentioned I am not here to attack anyone but all I'm saying is words do hurt and just because it's gaga with a tone of fans doesn't mean it hurts any less either I just wish some people would understand that you know it goes without saying gaga is one of the most kind most amazing people in the industry she pays for her fans health,she phones fans,she signs stuff for fans, she charges nothing for pictures in fact she even takes them sometimes,she works so hard she injures herself and then hides it so not to cancel her tours,I can go on and on words fail to even come close to describe ing the connection I feel to her and you monsters your both so incredibly kind and it's so beautiful it's just we need to remember just what we say you know because words are powerful good and bad! My dream since I car across gaga is to work for her now I know that's never going to happen as I have no skills but I just really wanted to share this dream with you and I know we all have that dream but to wake up every day spot be surrounded by inspiration,art,tech,pop,fashion, and all sorts words cannot explain how I feel every time I create something every time gaga create something to be able to be a part of what she does and to let my creativity free to take art and pop to another place and collide then as one hybrid to hear gaga speak in all her vanity as the goddess of love rises to Venus and we serve her through ART and POP revolutions bringing the world together through the cellerbration of our ability and talents and letting our light shine :) I know I can not be good enough to serve gaga but you have no idea the connection I feel with her work and for her and for for you all it's beyond human and I sit here trying to throw words around knowing there isn't a single one that can explain how deep the connection of gaga,her work the haus of gaga's work and you all connect to one vain that pumps through my body keeping me alive Ok now I have that off my chest I wanna move on and talk about me and my personal life because I don't wanna make this all about me but I do wanna be open with you guys and let you know how I'm feeling and just what you've done for me (etc) Now my life has been one worth livening I have an amazing family and I had a home,a bed,food,water and an education but I have never talked about this with anyone so I'm sorry if I'm kinda making an ass of it but it's hard to go back to some of the worst times of my life you know so I hope you can understand that anyway when I was born I was born with a condition called fettle alcohol syndrome Wich is a condition caused by the mother drinking during pregnancy now i don't wanna start putting my mom in a bad position I don't know the whole story behind it I don't know her physical/me take well being I don't know the conditions I don't know anything right now as I am not aloud to know until I am 16-18 and as you've probebly guessed I'm not I am 15 so yeah I don't know but baisicly i was diagnosed with that and I also had I don't know when I was diagnosed with these but I have ADHD,dyspraxia,dyslexia,ASD to so all that made my life harder and it is 4times harder for me to do things than average so my life was really hard school wise and because of my ADHD when I was really little my temper was just awful and people said I'd never make it through mainstream school I couldn't help the behaviour of course it's all part of the conditions I had thank fully it bettered and bettered as I got older and I'm no where near what I used to be like anyway so yeah it really sucked for me and no dought my parents to and I got then and still now in high school I get bullied every day and it was very hellish for me and my family I had to move schools because the teachers just didn't have enough ability and training and just didn't really know what to do with Someone like me I guess I'm assuming anyway because they eventually just started hitting me and this is the teachers so yeah I started running away from the school I'd tell my mom she wouldn't believe me at first but my mom knew when I was lying so met with the school and left the school so I went to a different school and it was a turning point but the bullying was bad as I was the new kid you know but I didn't get beat by teachers so at least that was one issue gradually my behaviour improved and I had an amazing head mistress mrs Nesbet she really was an amazing head and when she retired I was crying and she said I felt like one of her children to her Your probably wondering what this has to do with gaga because iv untitled this an open letter to monsters and gaga but I really wanted to share that with you guys because the story of my life has always been gain a friend betrayed by a friend gain a friend betrayed by a friend and that's always been the same and when I was around 11-13 I was depressed and was suisidle I won't go into many details as I know it may be upsetting for younger viewing and I wanna keep this a positive post but I self harmed and tryd to kill myself but I had been following gaga ever since she started but I was only like 5-7 so I couldn't go online and I didn't know about monsters littlemonsters.com,twitter or any of that stuff so I was just enjoying the music but when I was 11-12 thankfully destiny was on my side because that was when gaga realeased born this way and I instantly related to the album and I used that as something just something to hold onto as I knew at least that can't walk out on me not long after I discovered littlemonsters.comand at first I was really shy didn't really talk much and I was kinda negative as I was still very suisidle and depressed so my posts were about how I felt at that time and how I wanted to kill myself and when I got comments like you know "don't do this ""we all love you" "we are here for you monster" I literally would and still do cry at comments like that because it gave me hope it made me think that there's somone anyone who gave a shit about me so it'd keep me alive another day and then I saw lady gaga on youtube and I was feeling good enough because before I couldn't even thins it inside me to go on youtube you know but thanks to monsters I felt still really shit and that no one understood me etc but then I felt a particular connection to hair so you know I went on you tube and tapped in "Lady Gaga Born This Way Ball hair" and I see this HD Lady Gaga. HAIR +Emotional Suicide Talk+Cries. Born This Way Ball. NEW ZEALAND Fri 8th and I see "suiside" and I think huh? You know that's me I'm suisidle so I watch it and I cry so damn hard because on this particular day I was feeling really down and was on my way to attempt to kill myself but this time I'd brought I knife so it'd defenatly work so I set an alarm at like 3 snuck out the house went to an abandoned bridge my plan was to stab myself on the bridge so I'd fall into the water but after watching that I cry'd so much lady gaga stopped me ending my life and so did you monsters from then on I knew I was a monster and I started talking and receiving so much positivity and kindness you have no idea how it changed my life and who I am thank you monsters and thank you gaga this is a gift I wish I could give to every suisidel person in the world just to know Someone's put there fighting for you Somone cares it's amazing how powerful words can be I would like to add some notes and stuff iv made over the years and such I'm sorry if there a bit random I just really wanted to give you all I feel for you because I love you so much monsters and gaga so much you'll never know x Pop culture was an art now art and pop culture in me gaga is expressing how she is trying to connect the theatrical art with pop culture to uncover new freedoms in art and pop cultures combined through fashion espesualy this shines through in a beautiful way Hey monsters I'm so scared to post this because iv never spoken out aloud about it or even written about it before and I'm scared your all going to be thinking I'm an attention seeker or whore or whatever but I'm really not this is just how I feel all my life I have in all fairness been on the chunky side of the scales and wasn't much of a good looking girl either now I know looks don't matter and I tell that to myself every day but I'm 15 now and this is hard to talk about this is why I come to you because you are the only people I know who may support me but I'm beginning to really think because we are stuck in the society where looks matter I'm starting to think no one will find me attractive and iv always been the ugly duckling you know iv always been "the one with the conditions"or the "oh here comes that fat retard kid" you know And never been able to get much right and sure my parents give me everything(not everything but I have a lot)and I am so Grateful for that every day but that judgement "here comes the kid to avoid" will always stay with me through every aspect of my life and I guess you know the damage has been done I just have to except that and move on because my conditions is something I cannot change I was born this way but I guess you know as I say bulling defiantly stays with you and even if I ever do find my glitter road it'll still be a part of me and I guess that's why I feel I will never feel like a star but I find music and little monsters and @gaga all heal my pain of my daily struggles with the conditions I have but when it comes to looks its something I can't change so iv come to accept that but I can't help thinking it'll effect my future because that judgement will always be there anyway I don't know how much of this made scence I guess what I'm trying to say is I feel really insecure and this is why I have no talents,I don't look that good and I struggle and these things have really effected my life so I know this isn't one of my best posts and iv writen better than just now but this is my first ever time at realese ing my feelings this way so I hope I made a little scence and that you guys don't hate to much haters of course accepted as always but please don't go overboard xoxo💖 I love you with all my heart and although this is a part of me it's another part of who I am I am still me and I am still always here for you all 💯💯💯😃💕💕 I just want all of you to know no matter who you are no matter where your from no matter how much money you got in your pocket no matter what skin colour you are no matter what sexuality you are no matter what illnesses you may or may not have no matter who or what you are you are a damn superstar you were born this way and together we can celebrate this through Art and Pop hybrid end into ARTPOP and we can dance together Under our ARTPOP light and anyone who doesn't like it is just annoyed because they are blinded by your light but you just tell anyone who try's to dim your light to by some fuckin sunglasses :) I can never see gaga ever I never have and never will because gaga only tours in main city's and country's I currently live in Scotland which is good and all but gaga will never tour here because she hasn't yet I do know the UK tour dates ARNT out yet but she won't come to my area and also the nearest to me would be London but I cannot travel there my self and my parents cannot take me as they have physical disability a which mean they can't travel or do a lot and I respect that don't get me wrong I just really needed to let my feelings out because I see everyone else going and happy and pumped for the tour and then there's me stuck never being able to go and I'm sure I'm not the only one but you don't know how much it hurts you know what I wouldn't give for one of those stage seats anyway thank you for your time monsters oxox 💖💖 I just got the worst news in the world I just talked with my mom and baisicly because of my puppy needing an operation even if gaga came to our place we cannot ever go because our puppy has a hip problem so they don't like insuring him because of that so we will need all our money for him it breaks my heart how they can watch a puppy suffer like that just to save money tbh :( Lady gaga's albums in my opinion The fame=the struggle into the music industry The fame monster-fear Born this way- who you are in different aspects ARTPOP-the adredelin ARTPOP in my creativity I use my body and life to create the art of life I merge this art with pop culture to create ARTPOP as an ever changing hybrid I'm so glad to see her smileing it makes me happy to see and whenever I'm feeling down I love just coming on here littlemonsters.com because wheather it be from @gaga or monsters or whatever you ALWAYS put a smile on my face and I love you all with all my heart 💖💯 You can be whatever you want it to be and you interpret it how you want free your mind in art and pop combined but at the same time is saying we can all free ourselves if we work together we can create a free world and belong together in a society which allows for that to happen we can create such beauty if we try Omg I just listened to 'Dope'for the first time and this is what I think. I think that dope is a song about gaga's addiction to getting high and how that addiction destroyed everything for her and how she fights to put the people she loves before that addiction and overcome it because of this the song really made me cry and its so easy to relate to without even realising it this is a deep and personal song and actually I would like to share something with you guys you see the thing is I have been struggling with addiction a lot and recently I felt so low and fu**ed up and I played this song to my parents and burst into tears because I needed them more than dope and I'd finally realised it truly so for me this song will stay with me because of this story sorry to turn the subject to me and my life but I just thought if share that with you guys I hope you don't mind and thank you for reading oxox P.S Monsters never give up at the shi**yest time in your life there is ALWAYS a light you just have to find it !!('''')('''') Gaga I love you so much from the BOTTEM of my heart you made me forget all my i security's and made me who I am today if it wasn't for you and your beutiful fans I know I would've committed suiside at 10-13 years old because it was just the worste times of my life but this link what you said that night literally stopped me ending it all and from them on I started going on littlemonsters.com and watching your shows and listening to your music and I watched this link then I saw the monsters ball full HD next to it and then I knew You'd saved my life I had a always been a fan of yours but when the fame ball came out I was only around 5-6 years old I still put my paws up every time but I had to mention this link because it was litterely like the born this way ball was EXACTY what I needed to happen in my life and gaga you made it happen and you and your little monsters saved my life and rebirthed me as a little monster I now aim to help spread kindness,love,joy,creativity,art and pop like you do gaga XOXO I love you so much my heart bleeds for you with love ❤️❤️💖💯 (Can't include the link here as it won't let me:/) I hope I didn't boar you with that and if your still reading thank you very much there's so much I wanna say and thank both you monsters and Lady Gaga but This is what I mainly wanted to say right now I hope it was ok and I didn't fuck up to much I'm sorry it was soooo long it's just I really wanted you guys to know how much you and gaga have literally saved my life I left a lot out because I didn't want to give to much distress but I hope you know just how amazing you are monsters when you spread positivity oxox all my love Ruth Laing (15 but some of these were writen from 10-15)oxox💛💙💜💚❤️💗💓💕💖💞💘 littlemonsters.com account @bornthiswayfamemonst Twitter account @ARTPOPLight Instagram account @ApplauseArt_Pop Little Monster #PromoteOnlineKindness #gaga #Love #Kindness #TheresKindnessInEveryone #Change #ChangeTheWorld #Revolution #WorldChange #PawsUp #Hi #Happy #NiceQuotes #UpLifting #Pickmeup #Artpop #ARTPOP #Love #DoWhatYouWant #RKelly #DWYW #SNL #AMAs #Performance #Oxox #MotherMonster #thankyou #gagasavedmylife #trapped #free #freemymindartpop #youmakemyhartstop #art #amazing #stopthedramastartthemusic #paparazzi #killed #artist #colour #painting #form #twitter #Era #lovegaga #PawsUp #Amazing #BornThisWay #hair #designs #haus #hausofgaga #HausOfGaga #onesecondimakoonsthensuddenlythekoonsisme #Fun #creations #art #skeatchsybmittions #skeatchsubmition #ARTPOPApp #artpopapp #ARTPOPFree #FreeMyMindARTPOP #Tara #JeffKoons #Lol #Outfit #Fashion #Style #Songs #Makeup #Creations #Design #Designer #New #Selfies #Selfie #Fan #Gagafan #Ladygagafans #Ladygagafan #Welovegaga #Beautiful #Gagasart #art #DOPE #SelectBrevery2014 #MonsterStyle #Digitalframe #MonsterArt @gaga @bornthiswayfoundation @studioxo @hausofgaga @bobby @tarasavelo @lane @thewizard @brandonmaxwell @terryrichardson @troy @asilove @faspiras @richysquirrel @lacee @dollychops @marlaw @nannypoppinsengland @breedlovenyc