I wrote this for you @gaga to thank you for all you've done for me and also to hopefully help someone out there... The cold touch of these pages in my hands while i contemplate Nature, the texture in my skin that sends me chills down my spine , the rays of sun penetrating my Soul, the birds singing through the music in my earphones, the leafs on the trees dancing while the wind softly seducts them, the glow of the water reflecting all the natural beauty surrounding me, giving me an eternal feeling of depth... All little details are so important and essential for us to feel who we are behind all the confusing thoughts in our minds... I've cried oceans of misunderstood tears lost in time, i've seeked for help in humans and even if some might have helped and still do, nothing compares to the peace between me and the Universe itself . Nothing ,no one else, just the world spinning and my silent observation of every single change happening around me...these are many of the things that don't talk but speak a language only i deeply understand... I've asked God why he puts people on my way i fall so deeply in love with but one day or another end up leaving me in a cruel emptiness alone , i keep suffering for them but i've come to realize all the right paths are the hardest and the answer doesn't come necessarily from any human we might be seeking an answer from, it all is a cycle, one problems in one situation and you look for someone else that might solve it temporarily but always something new comes up and the pain starts all over again, only the people in the story change but its always the same....it's not in others i have to find solutions, its in me, i have the main role of the story of my life , the key is learning to give more to myself of all those blank spaces left in me from someone i truly loved and lost... I've started describing my relation with nature and evoluted to my emotional problems to simply show you we are not our bodies, we are not our pain, we are not our thoughts, we are the essence above all these vicious details, we are the Soul behind these internal wars, and what is the purest form for a new start and perfect place to find your pure essence? ...it's in Nature, its quite , it doesnt judge you , it gives you no answers or doubts but also makes you no questions, it leaves you in seconds of eternity in that Gap between your compulsive thoughts , that is called peace , where you don't think or judge anything around or in you > the power of the silence inside of you! That is why many people say silence frightens them, they lose for a bit all of definitions they created of them for years, they meet their hidden 'demons' , it opens their mind so painfully it scares them to death.... But take a moment to feel, what we have to be afraid of is all we create along the years, not the 'YOU' without an ID ... Humanity is getting worse than ever, jealousy, envy, evil, no one almost concentrates on themselves, there it goes, the obssession of having all others have or being as good as them and when they find themselves on that silence they are afraid, they realize all they invented was superficial , who they really are is INSIDE! Egos, we all have one, its a human disease , but some live from it more than others, to please their egos ...stop and don't think, close your eyes and FEEL , feel the world and the more you are aware of it the more aware of your actions you'll be ...no one has to change, but we all can improve oursleves ...what i want to help someone see is that , as i started writing, i was finding substitutes for my pain, but the cure is not there, its inside...if you are dealing with a problem look inside yourself before you run for a solution out in the world...ARTPOP helped me so much, not necessarily the songs alone, but MOSTLY the message behind it, Gaga was emotionally destroyed by heartless people, open your heart , this Era is so much beyond numbers,records, videos...this is a rebirth of a HUMAN we all love and admire, and it can be the rebirth of you! Listen to the beating of your heart ...it's your ARTPOP ! Paws up