I wanted to say thank you so much for all the happiness you made me live this week. Once again you permitted me to travel and escape myself during one week, it’s so hard to get back reality, saying goodbye to everybody reminded me of my real life… you know when you wake up each morning without even knowing why, when you go to bed every night praying that the next day will be different… I remember 5 years ago, I was getting out of several traumatizing experiences, you know when you can’t even look at yourself in the mirror anymore, when you feel dirty, destroyed inside... The day I heard Swine for the first time felt as if you had brought out the pain inside me through your voice! I remember my body was full of scarifications, I refused to talk to people, I was always alone at school and everyone was making fun of me, I always felt different and so bad towards this, and then one day I read your biography, I recognized myself in you a few years before, sometimes I think I feel your pain, you gave me this hope to which I cling a little more each day, this strength to fight and never give up, this is the reason why I just got tattooed what you wrote for me in November “Make your difference a strength”. I was very happy that you liked my tattoo and I think it’s honestly the most beautiful thing you taught me! I’m so proud of it today! Despite all of this, I still feel so alone, so abandoned, it’s a horrible feeling to not know where you come from and think you’ll never know it, there’s nothing worse than not knowing your identity and not even knowing why you arrived on earth, just telling yourself you’re an error of life. Sometimes I smile so that my friends believe that everything’s fine, because I love them so much and I’m afraid to disappoint them but nothing can make me happy, everything, everyone scares me, I feel like I’m stuck in my life and I can’t go ahead so to try to get better I do everything I can to ‘get attention’, to feel loved, but people take advantage of me. I need your help and to know what do you think, I need you to answer honestly to my question, I know that knowing your point of view will help me so much to move forward: " Do you believe you can go ahead and be happy in the present and the future, without knowing your past? " Thank you so much for everything and I would like to ask you one more thing before not seeing you for 5 months, I would like, when people use you or put you too pressure, that you remember that it’s not about how many albums you’re gonna sell or how many Grammys you’re gonna win, it’s above the showbiz. There’s a pure love between you and us, something real, and whatever happens you’ll never be alone. Your real fans will always be there because our love is unique and unbreakable. Together we are stronger than anything. I'm gonna miss you so so much till the Tour in Europe. Your lil Gypsy princess love you!! Xoxoxoo Laure