Lovely monsters & Gaga in the 1st place i wanna say thank you for the amount of love and support you have been giving me for so long and know it won't ever be forgotten and i'll keep being here for you as much as i can! Here is the #BoldBravery experience of me & my Girlfriend Belén... As you already may know we met one year ago after both meeting Gaga & becoming her keyholders,Bel in Paraguay & me in London...months after this blessed experience of both meeting Gaga, we both met each other , Bel took me out of a very dark moment i was going through in london, my parents divorced around 6 years ago and as things were tough my mom went back to Paris to have a stable job and help me more and i wanted to see her happy so i supported her building her life again and i gave her space as she always thought first of me, i stayed in lisbon but it wasnt easy,i was all my life close to her and it was a hell of a process for me, thank God i found my childhood friend miguel who became my best friend but it was as well hard for him for years for being gay, he was offended every single day, Gaga helped us a lot but he couldnt take anymore & he did not believe in happiness or anything. I had to change my life, to make this for him and i, i moved to london and some time after Gaga was there with the BTW Ball, thats when i knew it was my chance to make him believe again,as i already said here i camped and i ended being her keyholder and it helped him a lot,our dreams came true but unfortunately depression had taken over him and our distance was not easy neither,i was trying to change my life, he ended up being medicated and i started drinking often,even tho amazing things happened i was still hopeless and all my ghosts and demons were heavy in my head...thats when Bel came into my life , i was going out and drinking all the time,it was my escape and i did not notice how agressive and cold i was becoming, being away from my mom,my dad was a bit distant at that time and my best friend was away and going through hell as well....its so hard to believe in happiness again when you lost all you believed in,when people you gave your life to pushed you away and you find yourself facing your sorrow everyday, Bel came as an angel to bring back the Andreia i always was but was losing, we got closer,she gave me so much love for months,she told me things about me i never told her before,she is very special and good inside! She came from Paraguay to be with me in europe,i went to spain to wait for her but many things happened in the way and it got delayed so i was 2 months alone and the person we had there was evil and we never knew and i was left in the street, she had to send me money to rent a place thats why she took longer to come,well it was hard but it was the beginning and i was willing to give my all to be with her so i held on strong...it was her first time travelling from so far,she lost 3 flights and while waiting alone in the airport in amsterdam she was stolen and almost abused ...which she only told me much later, after this she had no more money for her last flight and i could not let her alone so i asked a friend and he bought her a ticket from paris to spain ! She finally arrived, she was livid,very thin and ill physically, i took care of her,the first days were hard but were so good,we were finally together and thats what mattered! Although in the following days i noticed she was acting very slow and exhausted and not physicaly but emotionally . She told me it was the trip,she kept telling me this for a long time,she said she was better off without the mesication which i didnt know she still took and i also thought it was better for her to leave that poison behind, but i didnt actually know she needed them more than i was aware of,she did not want to scare me and so we kept trying to live facing all obsticles, we were into forgetting all the bad we went trhrough so one night we smoked something we thought was MJ and was heavier...the guy tricked us and thank God we realized our state, we were going so crazy that night,we were feeling in a delirium and we never did it before so it had a bad reaction in our blood,my head was not ok for that past year so that night was worse,she still had medication in her blood that i started realizing later , she never told me how drastic her situation was afraid to ruin something but i realized that place we were in was full of addictions and people trying to take advantage,was not a good place for us to heal so we decided to take a bus to lisbon back to my country and be in a safer place also for me to stop drinking as much ,we had to try starting over in a better situation...there we were 9 hours in a bus to lisbon with a lot on our minds but more in our hearts,ready to travel the world together holding hands with our fears and face life , at least there i knew everything and i had my dad which i was closer to again,parents are our everything,they never let you drown! But day after day she seemed to need more and more medications but both of us were fighting hard for her to get better , we were safe there but we had no warm water to take a shower or internet as we were saving all we could, we had to walk hours everyday to a ferryboat station to have net ,thats when it came to us after all the adventure we had been already going through to tell Gaga our story and how she united us, we tried 3 weeks and when she was online we were never but we kept believing, we never gave up, we needed a motivation to keep going,her love,after a lot of struggle and one last night posting we had no hope anymore as we came back home feeling empty and tired,that night Bel whispered crying she needed to feel love ,i was frozen as i wanted to hug her but i was full of pain as well...before we fell asleep we heard in the radio 'HI ITS LADY GAGA' , we could not believe,it was so much more than a radio message, we felt it was a sign from Gaga through God to never stop believing , well the next day when we went to LM Gaga had liked our post exactly at the hour the radio passed her voice, NO coincidences!! We prayed for days. We hugged each other crying so much that night and the day after as they never pass gaga on that radio,was the first time and also the first time we left the radio on ,on that station! There we God showing is it was worth all the efforts we were doing together, a real MIRACLE! Our lives were pretty unstable as we had no work and place to stay for too long so we were surviving day by day ...as we were a bit more at home i dedicated myself again to a passion Bel brought back in me, as i say bad things happen for a reason! I started writing about my story and how it all started with Gaga,how she saved me and how me and Bel were there together, thats when we naturally noticed we were doing something for Gaga and not us, we were slowly transforming our pain into love for Gaga as deep inside we felt she needed us and our love , she was still away recovering her hip and far from releasing the album,but we felt the Universe was talking to us calling us through God ( she introduced you to this book here on LM 3 times) but let me explain you how this was the most difficult experience we got ourselves into... So we could not stay longer in lisbon as Bel's mother got ill and worried about her , i had 2 options: stay and let her go and give up on us and in the book for Gaga OR go on this risky change for me again and fight for us and our dream! So you already know i choase the last option, but it got hard again as we couldnt travel together,she had to go with her initial ticket which departed from paris and me from lisbon, i got worried again as we were going alone but this time was me losing a flight, after 2 days we finally saw each other again in Foz in Brazil where from there we went in a bus to her hometown, Asúncion! There we were at the place it all started with Gaga, in the room Bel saw me online for the first time, where it started with Gaga ,it was 'ending' as well with her there , we finished the book for Gaga there, months of signs and the creepiest experiences , God never left us , we felt the pain Gaga was going through, so we never gave up, we truly believed we were on a mission of love so we gave ALL of us and that all had consequences, our conditions got worse but Bel was more drastic as she had history already , our premonitions were right, after months holdig on Bel fell hard ...she overdosed twice with medication, she tried taking her life twice and ended up being taken to a mental hospital as her state was very delicate, i knew we were risking and we were not ok but i never would have imagined it would get to that point ...there i was alone, carrying the dream of both of us, and i had only one thing left to do, take all the anger and sorrow inside of me and DO WHATEVER to make this come true for me , Gaga and speially Bel! I turned this rage into strength and i went to NY alone with this one way ticket i had from a month ago my friend luis bought me for my birthday which we were gonna add one more for Bel, as it ended being the opposite of what we planned and i couldnt allow myself to give up, i went with almost no money, and the money me and my friend in london had for this he lost gambling, so i was literally for the first time in NY alone in the street and thanks to a friend who was exactly there at the same time as me and who helped me i could stay !! I then talked to my mom and told her what was going on and my dad also helped me with what he could, but i only had 4 days to make it happen as i didnt have much money to stay and she had gotten me the ticket to go back to my country ! All my hope was stronger than ever, all the odds were against me , but i found amazing monster friends who helped me and thankfully and because of GOD again i met Gaga the night she arrived from london , 1st November the night of my birthday! I gave her the book and a pig Bel had sewed a mini leather jacket for ! Bel was still in the hospital and out of reach for a month as she couldnt have contact wth anyone but inside i sent her all my feelings which she told me a month after she had a long dream of me and gaga with the book and then i told her , she couldnt stop crying, our lives were literally the song 'Gypsy' way before we even knew about any song or album! I also won a contest back in paraguay we did for fun where i was picked to see Gaga at the youtube music awards,another unexpected miracle! That night was the last i saw Gaga, after that show she was crying so much i was so worried but all my friend went to the place to see her but as i lost my bag i stayed for 2 more hours waiting for it so i had no more hope, i still went back to the city with a lot of Faith that was literally coming from God , i dont know how but i knew i was gonna see Gaga one last time before my flight and i did, 4th of November there i was with no voice as i camped with few friends for the youtube that previous night and we had only a plastic bag to cover us! There we were by fate again, i gave her one last stuffed animal i had brought for her and she was the sweetest full of understanding person, as if she knew all my pain and why i was there even before she has actually started deeply reading our book....Gaga it wasn't easy, but nothing good is easy, effort is needed and you save me and Bel! This is the darker side of our journey , the bravery we carried in our hearts for you! Bel is better with therapy even tho its still such a daily battle for us, now we use everyday our love and spread it to others and make them believe they can also make it! Its how we cope with our darkness and demons! THE POWER OF LOVE! Thank you for reading ... MONSTERS PLEASE NEVER GVE UP, WE MADE IT AGAINST ALL THE ODDS POSSIBLE AS YOU NOW KNOW SO FIGHT FOR IT AND HAVE FAITH!!!! @gaga #BoldBravery