I promised myself I wouldn't self harm anymore and channel my emotions into something creative. but it's not enough. its just too much some times. every day im reminded of how thin I used to be and how people would stare at me in discust, random people calling me homophobic names, dependants on either alcahol or dope. I was told to take risks, so i am. I hope its enough. [BTW Im not going to bother reading all the hate comments iv'e been getting for posting this, I dont really care if this gets likes. I posted this for people who understand and who are in my position. so go ahead. waste your time typing nasty comments, lord knows im not going to read it!]