sometimes life can not be fair i'll try to not wrait much so this is my story, it all starts when i was a little kid a man raped me, i didn't tell anyone i was so disgusted and i saved it for myself since then and i'm not ok i think i became gay i never choose that to happen i've been hurt and so confused i didn't know if that's normal normal or not and too bad i was born in a society which do not believe in change they kill people like me that's what they do it's like a country made of homophobic, i was young and stupid and once a day i've watched a gay porn video shame on me to say that, but just trying to be honest my brother caught me and he hit me until i couldn't catch my breath then he my mum then she told me that this a sickness and it will go away if it didn't you'll not have the right to live in this house and you wan't be a son of mine anymore since then i start pretending learning to act i became someone else i can never full in love i can never have sex i'm so confused this secret is killing me i can never trust my family my friends are fake and my life is a huge lie i met someone this year and i consider him as my best friend he's so straight and i don't know i never had a friend as close as him but he's the only one i really trust in there's something about him telles me that's someone you can share a heavy secret with so i told him few things and not all i never trust anyone after all he actually was so nice he told me i never had a choice to chose. but i feel like i shouldn't toled him i think that he's walking away from me he can't talk with me in the same way before and i believe that he'll one day figure out that he wants a straight friend to hung with it really hurts and what hurts the most is fulling in love it turns me sick my parents are devorsed... i'm getting troubles from everywhere after all i'll keep smiling until the day of mine will come 90% of people like me in this country mostly dies in the 20s one day you find him Laughing with friends the other day.. dead they can't hold it anymore. Lady Gaga, ARTPOP, you Monsters, Glee and that friend i told you about are the stick that holds me everytime i went to folow but too bad maybe one day my problems are gonna be too heavy and that stick won't hold on anymore. #BoldBravery