Hi, I never wrote a letter but I want you to know how you marked my life. I was still very young when my sister first heard "Bad Romance" , we were so outrageous in front of the radio that we used to do any dance move that came to mind (it was extremely horrifying , but we did it with love). At the time I was 8, was an ant in front of all my classmates made fun of me for my skin color and my social scale: medium-low. In a moment in my life I felt excluded, very few I spoke, my "friends" had other new and I missed out on. Enter "depression" In 2008, my sister was traveling a lot to another city for weeks to share with them, going to clubs and enjoyed their day like any other young man would, after coming trips singing "rare songs in English." I had found with surprise that I liked a song called Just Dance , (not our custom here to find out about the singers) and did not know who had a fabulous voice, the person who made ​​me dance. 2009, as usual in my family , we all clean the yard of the house, put some music (which will begin their rock n roll). On the radio, our favorite season was 106.3 fm, suddenly hear a song, it was the most amazing song I heard at all times, as always, my sister and I trying to make a choreography. After the song, the driver says "this was Bad Romance, this weekend in music videos will debut his video, do not miss it" and well , I'll look . That was a Sunday, a long week of waiting, and it was time for the music videos. Many music .. And I decided to stay up to see the videos, I had not realized but I fell asleep , until I heard a funny noise, I woke up and was like a "WHAT?" Yes, was you Gaga. My mouth agape throughout the video, fabulous. I went to my friend's house and decided to inquire about you. Over time, more and more I liked your songs. It was a future dam little monsters. My sister bought me a double album "The Fame Monster 1 & 2" (and listened while he is all scratched). My colleagues told me ever since satanic, like my family, it was very painful. I also tried to ugly and fat, to maintain my weight vomited. It was a process that almost do not want to remember. My parents begged me to stay away from you, it hurt but I did. It took about two years and in 2011 came an advertisement in which he said that a pop star would come to the country, "sorry is Lady Gaga and I must go." My parents refused, I cried and I was depressed, I did not study in school. It was the worst year for me as I almost lost my dad and my nephew, had many problems at home. Confirmed date would be in November and going to be you. I fought with my parents and my family wanted to go to that concert, I waited for almost five years, was to be a very special day. But refused. There was a contest called "Dance Like Lady Gaga " as the name says, you had to dance with 3 people and the group won VIP tickets if the jury chose . I wanted to participate and the answer was "NO". It was the contest and won 3 awesome guys, Applause for them, they would accomplish their dream ♡. A day after the concert had exams, shit, and the answer was NO. In local news single was Lady Gaga is coming to Paraguay " hours later, on social networks spreading pictures of you outside the hotel, I could not hold back the tears, you were close to me, at 365km, but it was closer than the difference between Paraguay and New York. One of your tweets hasselled warned that in times to greet the monsters , ran in front of a mirror and as I did when I was 8, recited "Are you Gaga Yeah, I love you, I'm little monster since 2008, my promise be little monster is forever" The day of the concert, I cried while the time passed quickly, it was 3 am, had an exam the next day, but no matter to me. Days passed and my parents decided to talk to me, they asked me a lot about you and more about why I liked your songs, I explained in detail that saved my life on many occasions, when I was a cutter in hand, how happy you make me. And maybe they regretted not taking me to the concert. I showed them the documentary "Bullying is for losers " and cried together. The worst news I received in 2013 was when you were going to run, I got so worried. But I'm very excited to know that you're okay and that you are a very strong woman. I adore you so much, thank you for saving my life; obviates many issues as I believe were minor. Thanks for helping me to accept more, I'm not all I see in a mirror, you are very important to me , one day I hope to tell you in person (which is why I will study intensive English lol). If you fall, do not worry, we'll help you get up, it's the least I can do for you. My heroine, our brave girl. Thank you for being strong many times for me, for us. I had an opportunity in 2011 but did not go, I will not lose another chance more. I do not understand English well, so use a translator, sorry for the mistakes. love, Jess.