I am alright now I guess. Sometimes I cannot believe myself-- how mentally weak I am sometimes to refuse harmful urges. One day at a time! I think I am just bored where I am. My restless heart gets me into trouble then I start doubting myself. This time around I have you all-- my sweet and crazy monster family-- i love looking at the love here. I'll start thinking of you guys before I do anything regretful and saddening. I'll just remember how awesome this summer will be with artrave and that my life here is just the beginning. I am just a little baby reaching for the stars mobile above my head. Gaga's beautiful halariousness will carry me through-- we all have our battles and sometimes we mess up. I am okay now-- but i'll take my pain out here instead of elsewhere harmfully. Tonight was a rough one #NeedYouMore #badhabits @gaga