I don't want to be me lamenting here, just want to show my story. I am an orphan of father and mother, my dad died in 1995 when I was only 08 months of life. And my mother died December 27, 2011. My childhood has never been easy, was very confused. I live with this family I'm 19 years ago today, since I was born I am with them. My mother '' left '' with my mom today because I was not able to take care of me. So my childhood is summed up in stay in '' two families '' and back and forth. Unfortunately I never knew my biological father. Almost always had contacts with my biological mother and coming home to her sometimes. But it wasn't easy because her husband is ex con and I was arrested, my blood family unfortunately some are captured or killed. Last time I saw my birth mother alive and well was in 2007 because I had to get my document. I saw her again in 2011, but dead and inside a coffin. What was very difficult and sad for me. Had no contact with her but I love her, she was my mother, my own flesh and blood and by more than the distance wasn't long I missed her and I still do. I just wish I could hold you with my dad and tell them to go in peace. Sometimes I feel that I can't do more. My dad died now creation in January 2012, we lived together, we were close, we were together all day and was and still is very difficult. I miss my younger brother who unfortunately is with his father (who is convict and drug dealer). I don't know how my brother 's, where he is, if you're well, alive, healthy, and he's only 13 years old. Sometimes I think it's happened a lot to me and I only have 19 years of life. I just wanted to have a '' normal '' family. Not that I haven't, obviously, I have a normal family. But it's happened so many things in my life that I get confused and sad. And Gaga, I just wanted you to know that you're part of my life and you make me strong. Keeps Me going and see life differently, to be happy and end. Thank you very much for everything. And if I can fulfill my dream. Follow me here Gaga, I ask you with all my heart, that's all. Would make Me very happy and I know you're reading me always and with lots of love. I LOVE YOU!