liabenatti27’s post

I'M NOT FEELING OKAY TODAY :(

I suffer from anxiety disorder, panic attack since I was younger and today I woke up feeling bad. I don't know I had a very weird dream and then I woke up a bit scared. Also I'm alone at home my mom went to my hometown yesterday night and she will just come back by the next week and my friend who I live with didn't sleep home as well. I've been feeling so alone lately and this is so bad and sad. I'm afraid of getting depressive again like I've already been some times and I think this and the fear are the worst things a person can feel in life. I have taken my medications properly but sometimes I feel very down and not willing to do anything, unless to stay lying in bed all day long :( I can't even describe how bad I get everytime this shit controls me out. I feel like I was die and that's what I'm afraid of. My heart beats too fast and I start to sweat cold. It's terrible and makes me feel so stupid because I'm not able to control the fucking situation by my own. I just wish I could get rid forever this shit and be healed. And also I feel like I was the only person in this world that suffers from this disorder even knowing I am not. I hope God can heal me entirely someday. Meanwhile Gaga songs make me feel better and calm down my soul and heart. They keep me alive. I pray for God that 2014 is a better year for me because 2013 was not at all. Sorry to say about my personal problems on here to you guys but here I can feel safe and it's a place where I can write and tell about my feelings whenever I need and want to and I know it's not an easy task to tell about yourself always but you and @gaga are my family and my friends and I know you can understand me no matter what. Thank you @gaga so much for having created this community. God bless you ! I promise I'll try to stay strong as much as I can. I love you XOXO #gaga #MotherMonster #selfies #Personalstories #littlemonsters #Ladygaga

Katherine Chambers@blackkatt21 11y

Gaga's right, finding something to divert your focus helps a lot. For me I like to listen to music ,draw, or watch something funny to make me laugh.Laughing helps me a lot because it helps relieve tension and I feel more at ease. I totally understand what it's like feeling powerless over your anxiety and sometimes I wake up not feeling right and it effects my whole day. Just remind yourself that your not alone and you can control it if you work at it. I don't know if anyone will see this or if it helps or not, but I hope it does :)

Pedro Marinho@pedrohmarinho 11y

Awn Lia! Feliz 2014 pra você! Deve ser estressante aqui com algumas brincadeirinhas de certas pessoas, mas elas com certeza não estão sendo insensíveis por mal. Minha mãe tem esses mesmos problemas e eu sei como é difícil e todos os cuidados e medicamentos. Mas tudo dá certo, sabe? Lembre-se todo dia de respirar bastante e ficar sempre confiante que você tem o controle sobre si mesma na sua própria vida, e que o que não se pode controlar, deixe estar! Ninguém pode controlar tudo e essa é o grande desafio da vida. Você não precisa se sentir mal por isso. Toda a sorte pra você no tratamento! Beijos!

bruinbruin@bruinbruin 11y

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Fernando@fernando 11y

Todos nós estamos aqui para ouvir você a qualquer momento. Somos irmãos e você vai superar isso conosco e @gaga. Deus te amo e nós também se cuida querida.

Anne@amills47 11y

Mee to Lia, I suffer from both as well. I can't tell you how much exercising helps me cope. I feel like a new person - especially when I'm jammin' to ARTPOP!!! PS - love your unicorn. We are here for you. <3

Augusto99@iamaugusto99 11y

don't be sad, you should be happy ever, smile for the life, Goddess Of Glove ( @gaga ) and monsters are with you, smile and be happy. Paws Up!

Bornthiswaypopart@bornthiswayfamemonst 11y

Omg I feel so bad for you I to have been diagnosed with depression and when I was 11-13 felt really suisudel and tryd to kill myself and self harmed (I am better through gaga and monsters and am sure that the depretion has gon but not the anxiety although it's better)anyway the resion I bring up a sad story is because I like you also have anxiety and I know how bad it can be you'd just be trying to talk with your friends but you just physically couldn't it isolated me a lot in that respect but it effects everyone differently but beilieve me I know how bad it can make life 😔 I just wanna say how brave you are stepping out and relying your story we will always be here to help you 💯💯 whenever you need and listen to gaga's words please keep strong monster oxoxo I love you 💖

Abi@abi 11y

Don't feel like that Lia you are so fucking beautiful and so cute person. When i said hi to you for first time i just asking a question and you talk with me like you know me for a long time and I said: I definitely wants her to my contacts and friends here. So don't feel like that please you not are the only one that have this problems or have similar situations just be strong and fight every day for you happiness. Don't feel alone i'am here and we are here for you. XOXO :)

Henrique Lima@rickgermanott 11y

Eu sei como você se sente , as vezes também sinto esse vazio que parece que não vai embora , mas temos que acreditar em nós mesmos para superar tudas essas adversidades . Você ainda é jovem por favor não se entregue , a gente confia em você .

Eva Gro†h ♈@pawsupgagaunicorns 11y

omg I'm so glad I read this because i have the exact same problem. I don't have to take medication but I was in a depression from the age of 9 to 15 and I'm almost 17 now and still trying to get my shit together. I get panick attacks too sometimes and i wish it could all go away too. it's so awful when it happens and i can never predict it. and i get so scared of myself when I have psychoses. usually when it happens i just try to imagine that Gaga is with me in that moment hugging me and glueing my pieces back together. it's really helped me a lot tbh even though it sounds kind of stupid lol. I'm sort of glad that i'm not alone but i'm sorry to hear that you have to go through the same shit because it's very hard :( never give up xx

Julia Westlake@juliawestlake 11y

Having a hard time myself right now but my mind and heart are always open if you need or just want to talk. I have several mental illnesses and I get it Sweetie! Sometimes we have a hard time and need someone to hold our hands and help us up! Love you Fellow Monster!

Rainbow Amie@rainbowamie 11y

Lia, you are not alone! I too suffer from anxiety disorder. I never realized I even had a problem until my husband started studying my behavior. I began to understand that constant anxiety isn't normal. It is so difficult and I struggle every day...but I talk about my problems, even if it's to strangers on LM. Monsters understand, and we care deeply about you!! I'm always here to talk or just listen! You are amazing!

Gerald Hubert@popatemyart 11y

I hope you are feeling better today, monster.

✞ Mr. Germanotta ✞@sergiomonstergaga 11y

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RomanMinaj@romanranter 11y

LOVE & PRAYERS! <3 STAY STRONG :)

✪ Thais@tnayra 11y

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Jess@cultureislife23 11y

This exact same thing happened to me. I would sleep for days so that I didn't have to wake up because whenever I did, I would feel anxious, nauseous, and my heart would race. The nausea and obsessive thoughts were crippling. They put me on temporary medication, but there are some days I still struggle. I am here if you want to talk. Sometimes the best way to get through something is to talk to other people going through the same thing. Love you.

Anya Tsvetkova@monsteranya98 11y

Lia it's horrible what you're feeling. I understand you! Stay strong it's very important. ❤️

Donastella@stellagagacorn 11y

Stay strong Lia. we love you.♥

Half Psychotic@alaiza 11y

Aww. Gaga ur so sweet. <3 i love you so much. and lia, be strong gurl. we love u <3