

BullyingIsForLose♈s @gagaskleinermonster
Dad in hospital :'(
Dad in hospital :'(
It's not easy to talk about this but you're my family and friends so I want to.My dad who lives 1200 km away from me is in hospital...It hurts because I can't be there for him...I am so sad...The most horrible thing is that my father has an alcohol problem and I'm afraid of him it's not really nice to know that one of your parents has alcohol problems and it hurts me too because it is my dad and even if he makes mistakes I love him with all my heart..I wish I could help him out but I can't because he's the only human who can help himself ! He should think about me and my feelings when he always get drunk ..few days ago I saw him and even if he knows I can be maybe 1-2 times with him he is drinking and it makes me sad..I love him but sometimes I just want a dad who will hold my hand and tell me that he loves me but I think that will never happen so far :( I'm bad at school now because I a depressed a bit I mean what should I do I am so unhappy with the situation I'm just 17 years old and I don't know how to help him all I can do is hope that he will understand that alcohol is not a thing making his problems go away.... It's not the first time he is in hospital because alcohol and it's bad because he is ill ... He is so thin.I'm just so afraid to lose him one day :'( I'm going crazy ... I don't want attention monsters I just wanted to talk about it because it makes me feel better I think <3! Thanks to those who are reading I love you all !