I'm trying to make this as short as possible :) So, everything started when I was like 5 years old. I was different than other kids in kindergarten. And I was overweight. I still am. When my school started with those same "friends" from kindergarten I got bullied. People called me fat and once one boygroup threw me in the middle of the street when I was waiting for bus alone. I felt so bad and it still haunts me.. I didn't have much friends I changed school and I felt like everything started to go very well. On 4th or 5th grade I found Gaga and I started to listen her music. I became a fan and Gaga became a big part of my life. But when I was on 6th class my dad told that mom and he were going to divorce. Family was one of the most important things to me so it felt really really bad. I got to know that my dad had cheated my mom for 2 years behind her back. And at the same time I got to know that my dad was alcoholic too. I was angry because he didn't tell me. Mom told me. I moved with my mom and we are really close nowadays. I wish I didn't need to say this, but I feel very weird when I'm with dad. I can't be myself. I have to think everything that I say. Everything was so hard back then and I felt so bad. I was so sad and things weren't going very well. I felt alone and I felt like no one cared so I did one thing I regret. I cut myself. It was the first and the last time. I regret it more than anything. But I can thank Gaga. Gaga, you helped me to stop. I still see those scars and I hate it. Gaga's music made me feel better and her words made me stronger. She made me smile after a long long sad time. I was better for a little while. But like half an year ago my mom told me that dad almost died when I was little kid. Mom told me that when I was 4 I always asked why dad is sleeping. He still doesn't remember what we played together etc. There's one picture of us together. I feel really really bad. Gaga is still helping me so much, maybe much more than any other time, to get through of this all. This may not sound very bad but to me, my life has been harder than hard. But I can thank Gaga. She made me strong again. Her music made me think. She made me feel like I can be myself. She made me SMILE. It's the most important thing. I'm strong because of her. Things are still not going very well but I'll keep fighting because of Gaga. She fought too and got through of it so I can too. Gaga you give me so much inspiration and love. I just want to meet you this year and thank you. I wanna hug you and thank you for saving my life. You give me strength to fight away the bad days. And little monsters, you have been so amazing for me too. Always when I feel bad there's someone of you who listens me. Thank you. I'm so proud to call you my idol, Gaga. I'm proud to be Little Monster. I'm happier. I love you :) <3 @gaga #gaga #mothermonster #littlemonsters #bullying #mystory #howgagasavedme