Last Friday I was diagnosed with Spondylolithesis, which is basically when a section of your spine slips. The doctor said at the time it was only a grade 1 slippage, (which is only 0-25% slippage). But I haven't been able to walk properly or feels my legs since. On Friday (just gone) I was rushed into hospital because I literally couldn't move the bottom half of my body. They did several tests on me at the hospital, and they measured my reflexes on my legs, but I bearly had any. My left leg has almost completely lost sensation, and my right ones starting to become the same. This is because the slippage of the bone in my spine is pinching my nerves in my spinal cord. I also found out that I was born with an abnormal spine, but obviously I've never had an x ray on my spine until now. The doctors have said that it's extremely dangerous to form the slippage at my age (16) because my bones are still growing, and you aren't supposed to develop it until you're at least 30. I will need surgery when I'm older, but for now I have to put up with it and try and perform physiotherapy on myself to help strengthen the muscle around the spine to help stop the slipping. But if it does keep slipping rapidly (which at the minute it is), I do need to have surgery next year. It's making me so depressed, I'm currently doing my A-Levels at sixth form, but I can't do them because I can bearly attend every day! I try to do as much work as I can do at home, but it kills me to bend over to write. I cry every night before I go to bed because I think that when I wake up I won't be able to walk, and it scares me so much!:'( I haven't told any of my friends yet because they would probably think I am "over exaggerating" with the pain, because that's what they're like... And I keep on thinking about the ARTPOP tour. I'm so scared that I won't be able to go because of my condition, I won't be able to camp outside Gaga's hotel when she comes to my country anymore. I can't do any sport, which I absolutely love. I just feel so useless now... I've wanted to tell someone how I feel since Friday, and I see posts on here like this and think they're so brave for posting whatever it is they have. And the comments always seem to cheer the person up. I look up to those people so much who try to help others. My 7 year old sister keeps telling me "get well soon", I only wish it really could be soon! I wanna go back to my old self!:-( I love you so much monsters, paws up!(''')(''') <3<3<3<3