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James or ArtLandOfMe @artlandofme

Crying is not for me

I don't know how to thank you all :) I was so sad and feeling so sorry to my mom and dad because I am ill..I have a problem with my skin..I just can't handle this pain..every time I move my skin cracks and bloods come out... I can't even sleep..The worst thing is that I am giving so much hard time to my family... I mean, just imagine you're my mom and dad..other kids out there are playing around. Eat anything they want, wear anything they want..but my son..can't eat anything, can't wear anything, can't run, can't sleep well and can't do anything!.. That's why I am always so sad and depressed... And yes, that's why my art is so dark and sad. I always express my feelings to my works because that's the only way to get rid of my pain... I sometimes think " Why do I have to live like this? Why am I born like this? Gaga says to be proud because I was born this way but I can't agree...I want to live normal like everyone else..I want to make my family happy!..that's not even a big deal.." I KNOW there are more people out there suffering than me..of course I know...starvation, orphan, cancer... And I know that I am a lucky boy because at least my face is normal, I can talk and move a little and have a family.. but I still don't want to live like this... it's unfair...There's so many shit people out there who deserves to die...but why choose me and the other good people? Well...some of you will hate me writing this because my disease is better than other people... But I don’t want to live like this anymore… I don’t want to cry with my mom anymore… 15 years is enough…I don’t want this pain… But like everyone says.. there is always hope :) I believe my body WILL get normal soon :D Thanks for reading this looong weird description and thank you so much for always loving me and my art :) I always believe everyone here who is suffering like me must get rewarded someday and live so much happy :) I will support you everyone you all deserve to live happy :) Thank you so much for supporting me @littlehoney643 @mothermonsterass @boluchita @nopanties69 @retromonsterfreak @ioana.serediuc @iamrdep @bethyboo @alienrose @popatemyart @hendrix @andrisettiawan @dds04212 @littlemonsterbridget @akhuda2 @orisaltzman @briannatty @emily.bonheim @nopanties69 @flashinglight @motherhookermonstah and everyone else :) #ArtLandOfMe #love #Hope #support #writting

Laura Z.@lauzie1 11y

Your PAINtings are beautiful So are you Love yourself - there is only one you in this universe

James or ArtLandOfMe@artlandofme 11y

You made it James.. So proud of you... xoxoxo

Amirun Akmal@jung27 11y

James,I'll Pray For U,We Might Not Have The Same Religion But I'll still Pray For You It Aches Me But I Really Hope That U Will Heal.I'm Crying For U Right Now :').. Neo Gwaenchanha,Batji?..Jebal.. Plz B Ok :)

Rainbow Amie@rainbowamie 11y

Write, talk, create, however you need to express your pain! We are here to listen and try to understand! We love you so much!

Sibel@gagalicioushooker 11y

thank you for sharing your story James, I'm really sorry about your condiiton and parents, but like Gaga said, thats what parents or for! I really enjoy your art, don't ever stop drawing and creating, even though I don't know you, I love you and hope youre doing OK especially since you haven't posted for a while, hope everythings ok! Love xoxo

Maru@maruja 11y

es duro,lo sé, lo peor es ver a tu padres tratando de buscar una cura a tu dolor y que nada funcione..también pasé por algo parecido cuando era chica..hasta los 16 años, pero después con el tiempo fuí sanando!ahora no queda rastro de lo que era antes..espero que sanes pronto también!!! :)

Liam R. Findlay@pevalwen 11y

I imagine you have it a lot worse than I do but my body is SO itchy and I have been ripping my skin apart from scratching (mostly in my sleep) and my legs are so wounded and dry. It's 1am now; I wake up every night scratching. Anyway, I just wanted to say I can understand how it must feel physically! Love you.

Bandit@bandit 11y

brave for you to reach out some may say its a sign of weaness i say its a sign of true honesty and the beautiful thing about it is that most of us have never meet one another but we reach out everyday n that alone shows how much love we have for one another 'we are family not by blood but by acceptance and loving one another" as quoted by ~ Tara

Bethy Cuozzo@bethyboo 11y

Sweet James I am wrapping you up in a big hug!! YOU made MY heart smile by seeing you feel better! This, my little darling, is truly what it's all about. 💜 #PromoteOnlineKindness #HighOnMonsterLove #artlandofmed983482f7

Retrodancefreak@retromonsterfreak 11y

dear James... I can't describe how much you touched my with this post. you really are an amazing person and it breaks my heart that you suffer from so much pain. I believe that you will get better. you should not be sad and blame yourself., because you are ill. your parents are very lucky to have you as a son and trust me, they will never stop loving you! everybopdy has its own cross to carry, but don't worry, there are people who will help you carrying it. I really like your style of art, because it is deep and full of emotions, and I hope that you will keep it up. ;) paws up

Gerald Hubert@popatemyart 11y

I am so glad Mother Monster saw this. She has taken so much time out of her schedule for us but I imagine this is what drives her to be strong for us on stage.

Aaron Mak@aaronmak184 11y

I love u monster <3

Valentina.@idrunkygaga 11y

Hey James! You know, i have loved your art since forever, and let me say i never got to know why it was kinda dark, and now that i know, i just love it even more! I love drawings too, but there's a lot of road for me to draw with the heart, paint with the feelings, and thats what you do, what you do is called ART. So, greetings and kisses from your biggest fan here in Colombia and everywhere else! As Mother Monster said, WE <3 U!

Michael Draxl@max9 11y

..rub in your skin with this, maybe its burning a lot, coz Urine desinfected the wound...if you are a brave Boy, try to drink your own Urine...that can help you so much...dont use the first morning Urine...its to aromatic...:-)...use the second or third one and catch it in a Cup...if you have any question about it, reply back to me...Keep well...wish you health!

hi James...ive reading your words about your illness...i understand you so well, coz im now sick about 33 years...in first time i think the same like you do, why this illness is catching me?...falling down in a deep depression, dont want to live further...but in me lives a fighter...and i fight against this till today...no doctor can help me, so i think to the old speech...help yourself, than help you god...ive trying so many things to feel better...my Skin also cracks and the blood came out and its itchs, that i want to scratch my Skin away...the only medicine who helps me came out of my Body...Urine...maybe you are a Little bit scared about this, but urine helps me so much...try it !

Ryan-monster-craig@craigo1 11y

james you art is always amazing, and art is ment to be expressive, Art is ment to show emotion, its a way to express what cant be expressed, im praying and hoping you get better, always an inspiration, i see in this work the darkness, but the colour in the lip shows hope it shows that there is something bright, well thats what i see :), im always a fan of your work, so really hope you get better, all that time talking to you and i never knew your pain, well i pray and i hope that you get to do what ever you want to do without the pain, cause everyone deserves that, but in the mean time keep expressing yourself through art because that will help, art has power in helping beacause it gets out any negative energy and its a form of meditation. from Ryan :)

Bridget Schwartz@littlemonsterbridget 11y

always remember that you're parents love you. we all love you. all of us are supporting you, and we all want you to get better. I know that it is hard to live right now. I can only imagine! But it WILL get better! You are so much more than a condition. Your life is worth so so so so much more than this. So don't let the condition win. Fight it! And stay strong!! You CAN win and you WILL win! You are a good, talented, beautiful person. Do not give all of that away because of something that is such a small part of who you are. This condition is a part of you, but do not let it define you.

Jemina Kauppinen@jeminakauppinen 11y

i have rheumatism and it was very agressive last year, i was in huge pain, but i always cried because my mom cried also.

Alexandria Monster@lex23 11y

You are so strong, and you must keep being strong. Things WILL get better, upi are in my prayers you beautiful monster <3

Gabby (MonsterStirling)@gabbylmonster 11y

We love u James!