I've always been bullied, called fat, ugly... I had no true friends. They came in my second year of university and I will be always grateful to them. After my parent's divorce, my alcoholic father died by an accident when I was 9, I had to grow faster than anyone. I felt in love with cowards and lost lot of weight for one of them. I scarified myself for them. After long years alone, I met my boyfriend when we was 16. My mom had a breast cancer the same year. She is the strongest woman in this world. My boyfriend was the only one to support me and my mother, none of my "friends" was there to give me their shoulder. Today I took a lot of weight but I get up step by step. I don't trust anyone, not even me. I'd have liked to hear the tolerance and acceptance messages from Mother Monster earlier, maybe my childhood would have been different. I will be 21 in January... I'm in a first grade of psychology thesis,I'm in love and I'm happy today. Thank's to all, all of the people I met everywhere in this world and who made me smile. Remember one thing, you're never alone and a smile can change your day... Or maybe your life.