Today is my birthday, so I would have wanted gaga to see this message. The past 4 years have been really hard for me, people insulted and hit me, and many times they also forced me to do things I didn't wanted to do. They called me 'forever alone' 'whore' 'bitch' 'slut' 'the thing' 'ugly' 'fat ass' 'sheep' (because of my curly hair) etc.. I can see the aftermath now : I don't have friends anymore, feel like I'm under pressure all the time and I am not comfortable with my body. The worst is maybe that my parents always listened to me but now I'm on holydays they think it's over. Whenever I try to talk with them about my problems, they say I create them by myself to get attention and because I have nothing else to do. In my family we all have problems (my father is on the dole, I lost my gandpa (my mother's father) a month ago) and instead of strengthen our ties it just divide us. My parents and 2 brothers do like it's all my fault and say I'm self centred. I can't get over that what bullies did to me probably changed my life forever. Today I'm 15, I'm still young but I can't stop thinking my life has been shit so far.. But it wont continue. I wont let anyone bring me down anymore. I'll follow gaga's example, who has been so brave and strong :) I'm ready to do my best, work hard, and concentrate my efforts on doing things I love. And you know why ? Because I have nothing left to lose :) #Selfies #fanart #applause #makeup #Artpop #APPLAUSECoverSelfie #Ladygaga