My name is Connor McKenzie Barnett and I am gay. Iv been gay ever since I was born. And my life has not been easy or fun. Ever since I was little I've been bullied. The bullying started in the 2nd grade when boys would ask me if I liked boys and if I wanted to be a girl. It got worse 5th grade. We're everyday I was called a fag, and that I had no guy friends and that I would have things stolen from me all the time. When I went to middle school, I was still called a faggot and gay everyday because I liked to watch Hannah Montana and I liked to hang out with girls. I also had rumors going around that I had AIDS, and so nobody would touch me or do anything because they thought they would get AIDS too. I had another rumor go around that I was actually a girl and that I had a vagina. High school was no better. After I finally came out in 9th grade, I had guys push me down the stairs when nobody was around, push me to a locker, and I got beat up twice. I've had people make up songs about how gay and gross I am, watch videos of gay teen suicides and laugh and look at me, tell me to go die and that god hates me and that I'm going to hell. My dad is the only one in my family that doesn't support me. My dad hates gays. He thinks that they are a discrimination to this world. He told me that it's bad to like the same sex, that AIDS was gods hatred to the gays. I have tried to kill my self over 10 times in my life. Hanging, beating my self up, cutting, even holding my breath under water. I did not want to live in this world anymore. I don't like how I'm treated any different from anybody else. And I know it won't get better, because it hasn't changed since 2nd grade. I even took a loaded gun to my head once, but I was to scared to pull the trigger. I got calls from people I didn't even know telling me to go kill myself. And everyday, I'm scared to go to school, knowing that I may get beat up, pushed down the stairs, or even killed. So this is the Connor that not everybody knows.