Phew here I find myself needing to talk to u again. Where to start? First of all, the recent pics, I will never judge u, because to me, your heart has always been perfect, & so the natural look was always my first choice. So many people are saying u are acting mental, either you lost it, or this has been your strategic plan from the start. Did u ever really care? That is the question everywhere. Right now, I am witnessing more doubts in u as a person as I have ever seen before. It is just crazy. Though I'm scared, because u're not talking to us anymore, something inside of me still keeps me here, by your side. I know the industry, well, if I begin to talk about "them" I will never stop, so let us skip that topic. I believe u have your reasons for staying away. It's just hard to fight for u, when u're not here to fight with us. I have always been honest with u, so this time it will be no different. I am a person with depth & integrity, so when I say I stand for something/someone, I stand strong. I stand for u. It's not ignorance, it's loyalty above all else. So if it hits me in the face, it won't prove that I'm a weak person, neither will it prove that I lost something, it will only show, who I am. I need u to understand, the backing u have(incl me) is pretty special. People don't stand for people anymore these days. So when I say I stand for u, I mean it. I'm all the way in Cape Town, we're in 2 different worlds, so if u think about it, I don't owe u anything, u don't owe me anything, yet I am still a 100 % behind u. It means something to me. Know it. I miss u more than words can say, because I see u as a part of me. It's not an obsession, it's not a spell, I care, because I'm human. I care, because u're human. I care, because the girl I fell for is who I still fight for. Don't ask me why I have this connection with u, I guess u're the first one who made me stop & stare, u're the different one, u're the one who showed me, a star is human too. U are worth much more than u think. U're one hell of a smart ass. But get this, all I ever needed from u was truth, for me it was never about the music even, it was about the person I saw in u, the heart I saw in u. So if u gave us truth from the start, there is no way in hell I would ever stop believing in u. Notice this please, notice me, it's my heart on a platter. By the way, u're beautiful. The wigs, the make up, the fame, these are things that never impressed me. The girl behind it, Stefani, well, she stays with me everyday. Much love from Cape Town, South Africa