I feel in the same way. I don't have anything that makes me feel inspired. But, everytime that i play the piano, or I go skating, I feel safe and happy. You've got to find something to do that makes you have motivation. And, remember that you're going to have a family hear, in littlemonsters.com
if you are not frustrated with your life then you are not evolving. don't be afraid of being alone, being lonely is wonderful. when i am most lonely i like to write or go for a run. maybe watch an old film. and of course there is always a gaga album!!
I understand it gets better, I just get so frustrated at times :( I hope your situation gets better too, take care of yourself :) than you for replying to me :) x
Trust me the world gets better,I'm a teen so I don't have I job for hate or like but I've been in a miserable life(in my thoughts 'cause my family give me everything) but my school "friends" and family always take a laugh of me,fir been fat and ugly.I start to cut myself and even have suicide thoughts but Gaga and Demi help me(including psycho and madecine)