As of today, I'm 82 days clean. In those 82 days I've learned so much. I've learned that life is worth it. I was bullied severely. I got death threats in my locker, pushed around, called names. It was a living hell. I've tried to commit suicide 3 times. Cutting was my escape. But it quickly turned poisonous. It ruined everything. Summer was hell. I lied to everyone. But to me, I was saving them from having the pain of losing me for good. But hiding and lying soon took a toll on me. My depression was becoming worse and I just felt really crappy. Then I moved. That move changed my life. I've met some really incredible people where I live now. But even though those people were by my side, I still planned to take my life on May first. My (ex now) girlfriend found out and told her mom. So the next day I had to go to the counselor and then they sent me off. 8 days in hell. But they saved me. So after that, I'm thankful. I really have been showed the light. Anyone going through this, it DOES get better. No matter what you think, it does. Life is worth living. Even when you think it's not, just listen to Gaga's music. She saved me. Just look at her, all those struggles and she's still that beautiful woman we call Mother Monster today. It's always good in the end, if its not good now, it's not the end. I love you all. Please stay safe. If you need someone to talk to, just message me on here. Or email me at tagafanfictions@gmail.com I'll always answer you. You're never alone. Xoxo (Top left: Right bicep. Bottom left: Right thigh. I put this because they all kind of looked the same. I have many more, but I'm not comfortable putting them on here. I'm really self conscious.)