hi today i'm gonna tell y'all my life story i know you will probably ignore it but well i'm kinda used to it i grew up in a very religious family but for me i've never been so close to god anyway i was raised to be a good boy that must obey his parents no matter what which ironically i still do though i hate it so much also i hate my family to death back to the point i've been struggling with my sexuality my entire life in the beginning i was like " it must be because i'm a teen and stuff " since i was a kid i noticed that i'm different from any one i know but i decided to ignore it till i met that lovely lady aka Mother Monster gaga didn't just help me see my true sexuality she showed me the better me the prettier me the braver and i mean it when i say that woman changed my life the moment i saw lady gaga defending gay rights on youtube i figure it out " it must be that i'm gay " said me and i made peace with it but still i felt mixed emotions to be diagnosed recently with bipolar which really explain every little thing in my life well though gaga wants me to be braver i can't i didn't come out yet and i probably never will i've never been on a date neither with boys nor with girls i've never had a lover and i will probably won't actually my 17th b-day is next Thursday which i'm positively sure no one will remember and i will spend my b-day alone but i said to myself why should i be so depression ( which i've been lately ) i've the most amazing family in the world you guys :) so i decided to wright this post if you're reading i'm sorry for being so chatty i know it was long i'm sorry for that if you're not and u r just passing by no problem i'm used to being ignored anyway thank u for reading that's really means a lot